Tuesday, September 05, 2017

absence..

Waiting for you caused... Fire to start in my heart so I had to put... My Palm-on-Cheek while counting
Second by second your absence, and you never came
I really wished then I'd never fell in love
Wanna know if you're upset.. Or if someone else had your heart.. Out of desperation I had to think.. Your absenteeism will last forever.. Thought I might've done
You something wrong and I found none!
I really wished then I'd never fell in love side by side the fire's found a home in me
And I get lost running after them thoughts
Any breath I think might be yours
Any whisper I guess it's your word
Been through all of this nights and days
They'd seen me then, and thought I was nuts
I really wished then I'd never fell in love
You promise with years and days
And throw your alibis and nonsense
Within a handshake, you're almost gone!
Or you'll swear your heart that you forgot about me
I really wished then I'd never fell in love.

Sleepless nights

Thoughts dread in my head, disgrace the purity of dreams ahead ...
Fake smiles, words so vile, beautiful eyes, arrogant lies, pain and despair, life's not fair,
Love on it's way to lost, for even emotions now cost, Complex mind, nothing to find, Eyes that burn, now it's my turn.. turn to cry, I'll make you want to die, Flowing blood and dripping tears, I'm tired of hiding behind this mirrors of fears. 
Pointless conversation, aggravation, Heart, mind, shadows in mirrors, stairs... who cares,
Stupid fights and sleepless nights
O, Sea.. see, Empty me.!

Heaven

If I can only be with you in my dreams, then let me dream tonight and I'll do whatever it takes ...
to breathe you in even if it's the last breath I take
To fall asleep in your arms even if I am never to wake again
To taste your lips on mine even if nothing else is to ever pass them
Because your love is what sends me to heaven and heaven...  is where I'll forever stay.

Not to trim our sweet dreams.

A thought about you, It's enough to spark the flam.. Soon becoming a conflagration tearing through my veins and burning at my fingertips, until I leave my existence into the land where dreams giving birth, I releases the sparks that day generated to be series of uneventful events... Where he can predict the unpredictable, and then I found that previous ideas aren't important, an inspiration glow.. Not to anyone but you..

I’m tired

Spending night after another trying to hide these scars, watching this infinity blue skies wishing on every shooting star.
bleeding to ink my feelings in a paper instead of talking, forced to accept people have nothing to me but mocking,
Dying before I get closer to live, I will not give up but, I have nothing else to give,
Do you know what these words even mean.

Can you imagine what I’ve been Through... I’m just sick, wick and broken too, If you look in my heart you’ll only find hurt, tears and nothing to hold, A vanishing reflection feeling so cold
There is no justice in the land of freedom, I don’t even know why I’m living for.. If it comes to me ,I want be here any more.. .. ... I’m tired.

Monday, September 04, 2017

long road ahead 003


When we became distant and the fire became smoke and ash... It's too late
How are you beneficial, o regret?
What are you doing, o reproach?
The painful nights have become long and the lovers separated.. Enough suffering and misery... And tears when we part and tears when we meet
Why do you blame me ? What's in my hand to do ?
It's too late,
How long have I wished to meet you with a smile or with a gaze of love or a blaming word
But I forgot how to smile as I have forgotten my pains
Time has always made people forget sadness and joy
If it's about the old love, If it's about the painful wound
The curtains of oblivion have fallen long ago
If it's about the old love and its harshness... I have forgotten it, I hope you forget it too
The night.... The ticking of clocks wakes the nightThe night.... And the anguish of the O's in the middle of the night
The bitterness of the sighs and the loneliness and the sleeplessness... Still hasn't gone far
You want us to be back as in the old times then... Tell time to go back and bring me a heart that hasn't fallen in love before that was never hurt nor deprived.

Because of my pain and the length of my nights... My pain, my pain.. Flow
Because of the joy of my enemies over my misfortunes... My pain, my pain.. Glow
Because of your harshness when we were lovers and the cruelness of the world to me
Between me and you is desertion and disloyalty and a wound in my heart that I have hidden
Between me and you are nights spent in separation... And a long road that you started
How are you beneficial, o regret?
What are you doing, o reproach?
The painful nights have become long and the lovers separated...Enough suffering and misery
And tears when we part and tears when we meet
Why do you blame me? 
What's in my hand to do?
It's too late, too late

Sunday, September 03, 2017

weakfulness

And then the light was an omen of the sunrise and the dawn was towering over like a conflagration... And then the world was as we know it, with each lover in their own path
O.. sleepless one who slumbers and remembers the promise when you wake up
Know that if a wound begins to recover another wound crops up with the memory ,So learn to forget and learn to erase it

My darling everything is fated... It is not by our hands that we make our misfortune Perhaps one day our fates will cross when our desire to meet is strong enough for if one friend denies the other and we meet as strangers ...And if each of us follows his or her own way... Don't say it was by our own will.... But rather, the will of fate

Wakefulness

Now you start bleeding, Now you ask me where her love has gone..!
Is it was a palace of our imagination that has collapsed and what still remains is its ash... And please tell the story on my behalf as long as your tears flow, tell how that love became past news and time is comes to vanish and let her go.. for both of us became another story of passion wasn't suppose to be welcome.

I haven't forgotten her when she seduced me with a sweetly calling and tender tongue, when her hand extending towards me like a hand stretched out through the waves to a drowning person, she seduced me with a kiss that a night traveler was thirsts for its bless, 
Now could you tell me where is that light in her eyes ?
Now could you tell her that I visited her nest everyday as a bird of desire singing its pain, when she becomes self important, spoiled and capricious, when she inflict harm like a powerful tyrant for you and me,
Now could you tell her that my longing for her cauterized my soul and the waiting was like embers in my blood,
now please ask her to give me my freedom, to release my beats, for you given her all yours and she did not try to retain anything.

Her love chains will prison you to the rest of your life, you kept nothing didn't do and now they spared me... now why  .. O,

Why do I keep promises that she do not honor ?
When will this captivity end, when the world is before ?

She is far away, my enchanting love, full of pride, majesty and delicacy and with sure footed walking .. walking like an angel with oppressive beauty and rapacious glory... Redolent of charm like the breeze of the hills... pleasant to experience like the night's dreams,

I've lost forever the charm of her company that radiated brilliantly, I, wandering in love, a bewildered butterfly, approached you and between us, desire was a messenger and drinking companion that presented the cup to us... tell me had love seen two as intoxicated as us ?
So much hope we had built up around us and we walked in the moonlight path, even joy skipping along ahead of us, and we laughed like two children together, when we ran and raced our shadows.. O god,
And suddenly we became aware, after the illusion of our euphoria and woke up.. If only we did not awaken.

Wakefulness ruined the dreams of slumber and the night came, and from now on the night will become our only friend, and with tears we'll ink the last chapter in a story will never end.

Million things

 I don't know how to break the form, i don't know how I recognize the faces, i don't know if my mind speaks the sense, or my memory is intact and my head is blown in the air, I don't know if we can fly without wings, i don't know how to dance, I don't know how many rules of love I break, i don't know how to fit the gaps in between your laughing and your crying, but until I'll be the tear never shed in your eyes I'm losing my world into shadow, 
I don't know a million things about you.. but i'm sure I'll always love you as long as I'm still breathing.

Friday, September 01, 2017

Between the longing of the end, and the longing should began

And the days went by, and the days passed so quickly, between distance and adversity. And when I met her I forgot our opponent, I forgot the night I was watching miserably counting the seconds. Out of my hands I forgave the torment of my heart and the horror she did to me.I don't know how I run to her, as if there is nothing beyond my beloved even death itself.. as if i have nothing nothing but my beloved in this universe
She met me and the desires in our eyes was enough to full the universe with longing, And hand in hand a silence words started to reveals through our eyes, and she is whispered to me, "I'm sorry.. I was so wrong about you..!"I forgot What was the reasons behind our sorrow.. I forgave her and forgot why we was suffering at first place, OWhere is the tears of my eyes went..! forbidden was the sleep.. the sleep abandon my eyes... O, with a tenderness smile with her eyes .. all my sorrow vanish .. vapor on air .. the
staleness of torment, and the sweetest torment, the torment of love for loved onesI will not be able to endure a day without her for the patience need patience to learn me to be patience alone without you.. There is nothing there in my dreams  beyond my beloved..
When wiser described
patience to me I'm sure  it was just imagination, some words in love, a tears in a sea full of agony .. ya who know what meant by patience tell me how i can run away from my heart, which place can contains my love but her heart, Our sweet nights already everywhere, together we full it with our love, with hopes full the universe, Hopes and affection
Here is the dawn fold his beams after the abandonment in its pink color becomesAnd the light of dawn awake up the joy when the joy said to love .. awake up be happy, awake up and be rejoicing... He said to love folk rejoicing... and I.. from joy to joy I neither sleep nor health,
I spend the nights wait the invitation to meet her,
living in the Autumn of my age to catch what still remains from youth spring between the longing of the end, and the longing should began

Thursday, August 31, 2017

I hate you

Heart is broken by grief from sorrow to sorrow one's could write on the flush of his heart,
You are so kind, gave me lots of pain... Washed away what was gain, like a heavy rain. 
Walking on them foot of lies, again and again... go dream on, but you aren't my heart any longer,
Heart replying me... 
"An evening glow, the moon appears stars painted across the sky
A howl is heard
A bird cries out
A sorrowful feeling fills the air
The wind hushes the breeze fades when mourning tears droop down
All happiness gone every smile removed where sadness takes its place.. I beats only for her",

O, god then you aren't my heart any longer, she owns you, I hate you.. I hate you

The breeze of dawn

When the breeze of dawn pervading your hair O, my love.. i hear it whispers to my ears tenderness sighs
When the fragrant smells of your perfume dissolves in your sensitive senses whenever it touches your skin O, my love.. I hear it whispers to my ears tenderness sighs.
Yet I wounder why whenever you whisper me "I love you", i can't reveal the lamentations of your love loudly to the universe. 
O, I Wrote your name letters one by one with beads of morning dew on all trees leaves, who can admire you such as me, who can
describe you like me..!

you are a beautiful dream, I hope all wounded hearts could dream on with me.. you are the highest sense i touched in my life which made me melt, made me feel that I'm still human full of humanity.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Wind of September


Wind of the middle of September always brings reality of which weather Autumn will bring,
impatient we wait.. Autumn leaves to fall into the shore of love

Stars dust

What drown the mind those wandering thoughts, When our hopeless dreams unfortunately nothing is what it seems.
what clouds the heart is, am i being fair..! or you are giving me less much of care..!
And in this never ending game do I'll have you or my unreachable stars dust will be gone in one breath of air.  O, 
and I find myself staying up late watching my thoughts drift into you
the way your hair descends upon your face and the way your lips look when they form the words you know i love to hear.

Wise men said

A long ago, wise men said, this life is so arrogant, and he who deceived by life tempting, he lose his destiny.
devil is capable of doing much... Capable of morphing with a thousand images, but he can not control those who dispense good to other.
what is the value of life and living if we lost our moral values, and selling our Innocence, tenderness and humanity.
How we can be proud in front of our mirrors if we lived our life escape from the truth. 
Money can come from the wind . it also may lost in the hardships of our life even our children leave us in the day of reckoning.
Money always disappears regardless of its amount, nothing will save us but the good we do for It will always remains.
and who we will be if we sold our past and our present, and why we even live if tomorrow can't bring satisfaction, and how we lay on beds sleeping as dead without dreaming about future, yet how dreams can see light if it was not a result to our good deeds.
a long ago, wise men said, this life is so arrogant, and he who deceived by life tempting him, he lose his destiny.
devil is capable of doing much... Capable of morphing with a thousand images, but he can not control those who dispense good to other.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

five years ago in a note

For the sake of your eyes I loved love after a longtime I had spent in carefreeness... And now my eyes after sleep begging wakefulness not to leave.
O.. seducer, without you no passion would have shaken me nor the taste of love have pleased me, this is my heart, so own it affairs.. Judging it wrong if you like, or be equitable.
From the luster of passion in your eyes, you ignited my longing and on your path, wherever you went, I sent my eyes... Visions around me clouded between my doubt and my certainty and even desires dance in my heart over the tune of my sorrows.
I glimpse passion in your voice, buried O.. O. O's, hiding between your breaths so I don't discern it... I don't know if it's love whose sorrows your feared, or if you feared the blame so you favored tranquility.

You filled the path of love for me with happiness like light on the cheek of a dew covered morning... And if you felt me in misery, you'll cry as a child scared and fatigued... after you seduced me, I only found a mirage stuck in my hand... I didn't gain from it but a fleeting rainbow vanished before my eyes, and I wasn't guided.
Do you remember...! 
How you laughed when I cried and wished my torture to remains longer.
How you counted the days as only catastrophes and they were my life and my youth.
How you thought the moaning of my ribs an echo of tune of the sweetest songs while I was drinking the tears of my heart.

Don't say where are our nights, pretending it was so sweet.
Don't ask me about our desires and hopes, while it was mirages.
I covered yesterday with a curtain and a veil, So I can endure the bitterness of your abandonment and be willingly awaiting the reproach.

Monday, August 28, 2017

I swear..

By the Sun and its glorious splendour;
By the Moon as it follows His Sun to surrender
By the Day as it shows up the Sun's glory;
By the Night as it conceals it;
By the Firmament and its wonderful structure;  
By the Earth and its wide expanse:
By the Soul, and the proportion and order given to it; and its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right;
Truly he succeeds that purifies it, And he fails that corrupts it! 

By all the meaning allowed to fold beneath the bones.. 
I swear by your name silently in the depth of the horizon..  I'll be there only to drown deeply into your eyes.

A little champer

There is a little champer inside this bleeding heart, when the waves flow high... When the moon disappear beneath the cloud... When the world shrinks leave no space for breathe, when the storm twiste men trust leave no home mixing all the things with merely dust... I runs there and hide.
Respectfully, freely I offered it to you, for if we could play together then surly we can pray there forever... This humble kind of fortune is what I'm willingly seek, a peaceful place where two-piece of unique fragile spirits can fold silently what words failed to describe,
It's not war, or even not a battle .. it's forbidden for knights to fight..  Inside the shamper, let the wind of changing fold the sails, let that beam of hope light the candles, warm the senses for in time the boat will be at your shoes, searching for your champer to pray there forever.

The tools

I'm tired from all this... the standards of quantitative and qualitative more or less, If i shows you how it giving birth, then I can't imagine the affection and the impress,
Tools was, is... a peace of mind, emotions with grabbing the sense of your presence in my loneliness... a tab, a map that hunger longing to your sweetness, O.. with a life dictionary opened, maybe no.. maybe yes, just to prove my smartness,
The subject was freedom and how we seek or speak it, in a countries hunt all pencils, in a world full of red, excuse me for asking... are we still dreaming or we left the bed.
I'm a prisoner to an idea takes over my mind and shining in my head..and we will talk about it... face to face ahead,

Sunday, August 27, 2017

First meeting 001

IF this important heart trouble your peace with words lighter than air, or hopes that in more hoping for a home twice we share, putting the rose in your hair, covering the lips with longing twilight and say,"O Hearts of wind will blown flame".. but Winds, older than changing the plans between a night and day, That hunger and longing came from a true was old, in the shore of your
carves lands.
In one last battle fold upon blue fold, Queens wrought with it's par hands, with her lovely sadly face above the wandering tide, in the hidden secret place where  the last dream folded and where it also died, O love "I'll never ever changing till change will be dead"