I seek my tears price to be paid

If i could talk, i would tell you that i cared. I would try to say how I've never felt this way and no one else could make me feel like this..
If you weren't blind you'd see, just how much you mean to me, you don't even care while you're standing there.. Now I pray you stay by me forever to support me throughout my life and give me courage to move forward.. Its hard, hard to stay away
If i could talk, I'd tell you that with silence and patience I took the breather.. This hand of mine was tired to hold the same shield every time .. 
 If i could talk, i would tell you that if this is the time to hit
Lets the hunter become the hunted because the winner will be in God’s favor
Losing game ... Losing life ...
 If i could talk, i would tell you that now .. now I seek my tears price to be paid with your cold blue blood..! 
If i could talk, i would tell you that i forgive you not because I'm fool, coward or weak, but because i do love you..

Yesterday

Yesterday my living room wall began to talk to me and, naturally enough, a reply was obligatory. trying to make conversation, I remarked on the warm weather we enjoyed that time of year. This proved a mistake, however.
For, quite unaccountably, the paint started to fall in great white strips from off the wall.
Until the wall stood there gray and naked before me, revealed in its primal state, in all its plastered glory.
Unhappy at this development, I said out loud that I was a fool to expect any sense from nothing but a brick wall.
Its response was a stolid sort of a silence.' I could certainly tell It had taken offense.
And knowing that walls have ears and hurt feelings are hard to mend,  as it gave me its wall-eyed stare I felt I had lost a human.
And even though I took care when the cold weather came to my room paint it's over, things were never the same: 
Talking to the wall all the time now no sign does it evince that it's even listening. and it hasn't spoken to me since

Are you there.?

Are you there.? 
And do you still care.? 
Of course you are free .. To let it be or to talk to me
If you were to talk
And not to walk
I'm sure the conversation would provide some stimulation
Perhaps I have caught you at a bad time or perhaps you are offended by rhyme in either case I do not wish to offend
If I have, please could we pretend
As if it had never been
And that you had never seen
Such offensive verse
I do not wish to be terse
But won't you talk to me.!!

الايـــــام.

إن أحسست يوماً . . بأنك مرهق من ركض السنين
وإن ابتسامتك تختفي خلف تجاعيد الأنين
وإن الحياة أصبحت لا تطاق . .
إن شعرت إن الدنيا أصبحت سجنا لانفاسك وإن الساعات لا تعني إلا مزيداً من ألم الحنين
وإن كل شئ أصبح موجعا . . فارسم على وجهك ابتسامة من قهر واسكب من عينك دمـعـة مـن فرح .. واعلم انك من التاحين

 إن طعنك صديق أو احتلك الضيق
إن فقدت كل شئ جميل وتحطم طموح على كف المستحيل
افتح عينك للهواء و النور ولا تهرب من نفسك في الظلام . .
عد إلى النور واحضن عروقك المفتوحة وجراحك التي أصبحت تحتاجك كالباقين.. أشعرها بوجودك . . واشعر أنت بوجودها . . تعلم فن التسامح و عش بمنطق الهدوء ..
لا تجعل قلبك مستودعا للكره و الحقد و الحسد و الظلام . .
لا تـنظر إلى من حولك بأكثر من ابتسامة تجتاز المسافات . . و تخترق حواجز الصراع... ابتسم لهم . . رغم كل ما في قلبك من أوجاع . . فأنت اليوم هنا وغدا من المودعين .
احمل في قلبك ريشة ترسم بها لوحة يتذكرك بها الآخرون لا رصاصة . . تغتال بها كل ماذال يذكرك بالحنين
مسكين جداً أنت حين تظن إن الكره يجعلك أقوى . . و إن الحقد يجعلك أذكى . . وان القسوة و الجفاف هي ما تجعلك إنساناً محترماً
تعلم أن تضحك مع من معك . . و إن تشاركه ألمه و معاناته . . عـش معـه وتعايش به و تعلم إن تحتوي كل من يمر بك . .
لا تصرخ عندمـا يتأخر صديقك . .
ولا تجزع حين تفقد شيئا يخصك . .
تذكر إن كل شئ قد كان في لوحة القـدر . .
قبل إن تكون شخصا من بين ملايين البشر
إن غضب صديقك . . اذهب و صافحه و احتضنه . .
وان غضبت من صديقك . . افتح له يديك و قلبك . .
إن خسرت شيئا . . فتذكر انك قد فقدت اشياء . .
و إن فاتك موعد . . فتذكر انك قد تلحق موعــداً..
..مهما كان الألم مريراً ومهما كان القادم مجهولا . .
افتح عينك للأحلام و الطموح . . فغداً يوم جديد . .
و غداً أنت شخص جديد
لا تحاول إن تجلس و إن تُضحك الآخرين بسخرية من هذا الشخص أو ذاك . .
فقد تحفر في قلبه جرحا . . لن تشعر به . .
و صديقك يعيش به حتى آخر يوم من عمره . .
فهل على الدنيا أقبح من إن تنام . . و إن ينامون وصديقك . . يئن من جرحك ؟! !
و يتوجع من كلماتك ؟ !
كن قلباً و روحاً تمر بسلام على الدنيا . . حتى يأتي يوم رحيلك . . إلى الآخرة . . فتجد من يبكي عليك من الأعماق . . لا من يبكي عليك . . بحكم العادات و التقاليد . . و لا تدري . . متى يكون الرحيل . . ربما يكون اقرب من شربة الماء . . أو اقرب من أنفاس الهواء
وبالتأكيد . .
سترى إن الحياة يمكن إن تكون جميلة حتى في عز الألم . . و في وسط المعاناة . . ستجد إن ابتسامة ما 

تخرج من أعماقك . .
تخرج من زحمة اليأس و المرارة . .
تخرج من صميم الذات . .
عندها ستتذكر , , كم أنت إنسان رائع.
تحياتى

Lighthouse..

Such as lighthouse.. It never moves to help any boat from drowning.. It's just stand alone... light glow, shine for to lead they to the shore.. No less no more.. While it's barely stand up against all those crashing waves ... What a pity life.!!

This.. Is my life.

O.. there it is again, i'm down on my knees, with my head in my hands, I stumble to my feet weaker then before, my head hurting, ears ringing and my spine killing. I can see the light in the darkness that surrounds my life knowing that I will never reach it in time.
My body is so weak and so thiny, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much sometimes I think i'm dieing, my head is so full of noise so loud.. O, it's going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like a vanishing shafow, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock them down…
it's coming… I can feel it, it starts in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, i'm down on my knees shouting… o God.. why me…please.!! 
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath... Is this the end…..? 
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I can't describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why all this happiness to me.!
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there can't even crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
I'v got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…i'v got to find my lost strength.
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…i'm so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, i'v got to keep fighting…i'v got to be a survivor not a failure for my family.
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it won't belong till it comes back around, so i'v got to keep moving to make up some ground. Cold and alone, with no confert in site. So, this is my life, and this is were i'm shore i'm destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my true life.

Alas.. If dogs can talk..!!!

If dogs could talk what would they say? 
Maybe, hey you come let's play, go grab the ball and the frisbee lets play a game just you and me.
Maybe they'd say don't leave me out here, I want to be with you, close and near, I don't want to be tied to this chain, Will you bring me inside out of the rain? 
What would a dog say on being a stray.. Maybe hey you I've lost my way, I'm hungry and thirsty and lonely too... Hey maybe I can come home with you? 
The dog in a shelter must have alot to say.. What did I do to end up this way, can you take me home and give me a name... I once had a family, this just isn't the same
I don't want to fight, a dog once said, All I want is a nice soft bed, It hurts to fight and be ripped apart, why don't we make a brand new start.
A major discussion goes on everyday, Why oh why are we stuck in this cage, Will you leave us go and let us be free, This isn't right, why can't you see.
So, if dogs could talk what would they say.!!!
They'd say I love you and with me you could play, we'll go for walks and relax in the sun, now wouldn't all that be such fun but they can't talk, but look in their eyes, those eyes say more than one can surmise, they're devoted and loyal and oh so true...
All they want is to be with you.

Our minds..

One thing, important and rare, which cannot be found everywhere,
we need it every-time, to have a happy and nice time, 
when it is here we don't care, we make it go away,
then again we want it to come, when so difficult it has become,
A necessity of old, young and child, it's absence makes us wild,
We can neither avoid, nor ignore it, for it makes the candle of happiness to lit,
WWe have to achieve at any cost, otherwise everything would be lost, 
Now i would like to remind, that the thing is peace of mind

At the heat of the night

At the heat of the nights .. I wonder 
Who rubs now your shoulder..!!
Will you miss me when you are older..?
Will you think of me then..?
Will you remember when..!
With me it was less colder..?

There is a reason

Every little thing no matter how small is here for a reason, A part of the All; 
Not insignificant, not just a whim, all are created expressions of Him; 
Nothing is simple, nothing is rare, all of it matters, to someone, somewhere; None of it random, none of it small, all is important for one and for all;
you are my Shadow, we aren't the same, Equally chosen as part of the game; One day we'll see it, one day we'll know out of that wisdom.. wonders will flow; And in that moment all hearts will sing,
There is a reason for every little thing.

Wind whisper

A little breath can make a prayer,
A little wind can take it, and turn it back again to air:
Then say, why should you make it ?
An deeply thought can make a word,
A little ear can hear it,
A careless heart forget it heard :
Then why keep ever near it ?

Nay no regret

No regrets.. Nay I have no regrets
For the time that passed away, joys and happiness died
Loneliness and sorrow tiptoed into my life
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For the feelings doth burned and the yearnings never yearned
Smiles those faded away lies of life which did vanity
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For love which never become mine and searching like fool and blind
Lashes those put by thoughts snatched away all last hopes
Now I am lying on the bed
Made of thorns and venomous blades
Looking into the cold and frigid eyes
Pleading her to take my soul away
Once dead there will be no regrets
Nay there will be no regrets

The game

Sitting around this empty place, full of hollowness and nothingness, 
None of the place I wanna be, the place that I call home.
No hope, My life’s a loss, 
No wish, no aim, My life’s empty, 
With only the sad darkness as company.
How could this be, this is not how it should be, 
But with the way things seem, my chances seem so slim.
Can’t forget the things we done, 
Can’t erase the memories in my mind, 
All the lies she told, 
All the love I sold, 
All the friends she betrayed, 
All the monsters I portrayed, 
Has turned to guilt.
My vision is blurred, 
My mind is clouded, 
My body is numb, I feel so dumb, 
For the things she done, under the name of game.

fall to the ground

The first I forgave 'cause I wasn't young
The second hurt but there were more
The third passed by without a chance
The last just passed without a glance
Four years passed by without that deceptive eyes to be open
That's how I found it takes more than talent to win
The eyes that followed everywhere
Judge me every step
They don't see what my life has been
They only see mistakes
Love, to not be loved.
Destiny, or fate?
Happiness, despair.
Sun, rain.
Sweet, bitter.
Soft, loud.
Finally like rain we all fall to the ground.

Deceptive

Eyes are the windows to each and every soul that articulates a story in every perspective seeping when sad and tightened when angry but can lie to us ‘cause they're deceptive.
For our eyes lie to each and every one of us unable to fathom what we're capable of no one has seen what our eyes have seen, which could vary from hatred to love.
Eyes close and bring darkness upon us for some, a reality unseen this deception can cause misconception that traps us within a dream.
Eyes can reveal a humans personality but illusory hide their story misguiding reasons behind a tear by which the eyes lie is mandatory.
But what if these eyes did not lie and only told the truth?
Would pain befall everyone for the truth we all lust?
Would all be revealed inside?
Or would a young child's eyes, be something you still trust?

So tired.. Time to live peacefully.

hen the night becomes romantic
When the moon sails in the sky smoothly
When the twinkling stars shine in the sky
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully
When I talk to you in my dreams
When I feel your loving words that echo my ears
When memories of the day run through my mind
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully
When the angels surround you in the night
When the prayers showered on you for blessings
When my love express you how much I miss you
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully 

A kiss

I don’t know what an angel looks like
I don’t even know if they have wings
But I know when I need a reminder
Something wraps around me and sings
It’s the wind in the trees
Makes me pause for a moment
And it’s singing to me
Invisible hand brushing my cheek
Angel kisses to remind me
Everything is okay
Angel kisses and suddenly
I remember what I’m here for today
It’s my chance to love you through this
Daily dance and pass along to you
Some angel kisses

Thank you.. All

I thank God for who i am and the person i've become
I thank God for who's in my life and that i'm safer than some
I thank God for my family and how they're always there
I thank God that they raised me and how they'll always care
I thank God for all my friends and the trust they have in me
I thank God for my happiness that's now so easy to see
I thank God for the gift of life and that it's good and pure 
I thank God for who's in mine to make me safe and sure
I thank God for the gift of love and what it means to me
I thank God for how our love felt when you set my heart free
I thank God for my favorite gift a special gift, it's true
I thank God for this special gift and that special gift is you
I thank God that you're by my side; that our hearts have become one
I thank God that i have you now for my love will never be done 

My dear love.

In every life there comes a time for giving thanks and to say goodbye.
Even though you may be miles apart,  your memories will keep you close at heart.
So don’t be disheartened at the thought of distance that can’t remove the memories; your heart’s closest treasures.
May you be blessed in all that you do, and may you experience lots of happiness too! 
Goodbye for the moment till we meet again.
May our relationship be a treasure that will never end.
For my dear neloved.. you are always in my heart forever...'till we meet again and tomorrow will be soon here.. my dear love. 

Asking for forgive

Loving you has filled my heart with joy beyond compare.
Nothing has meant more to me than knowing that you still care.
And deep within my heart I know, 
That thought of past, 
You will find great calmess in forgiven I.
That through the present, 
I'll find my greatest happiness in sharing life with you. 
That through the future,
We wont have to be apart cause I love you so and i know 
You have given me your heart

I love star fish

Fish have many pretty colors, they live beneath the waves 
Some fish seem to swim in schools while others live in caves 
Some are short and some are small and some are stringy thin 
Some of them are wide and tall and some just dig right in.
There's not much light beneath the waves of all our great big seas, 
But all the fish don't seem to mind, they somehow still can see 
Plants live down there, under water and make things seem so nice, 
That all the fishes dance around and always check things twice. 
Some fish swim deep down there, others they just won't 
Some of them seem unafraid, but most of them just don't 
Some fish have large shiny teeth, some have none at all 
Some of them swim hastily, while others only crawl.
Of all the fish and animals my favorite is a star fish.
If I find one on the beach, I stop ... and make a wish.

In my heart.

Your glance your smile, your soft clear eyes, 
They pierce my world, my heart, my sides, 
Longing your soft and healing way, 
My love, in vain, will not go away.
You've changed my life, what will I do, 
Some days I think of, nothing but you, 
You fill my mind, my prayers, my days, 
With your loving and tender ways.
I wish only to fill your desires, 
Render me please to fill these inquires, 
I don't want to appear obtuse, 
By trying to remove this worlds abuse.
Help me accomplish all of your needs, 
I can satisfy much more in deeds, 
I'll work so hard and not implore you, 
But you must allow for me to adore you.
Your love for me to win one day, 
For this I've always longed and prayed, 
Remember please always, for you there will be, 
That special place, in my heart for thee. 

Lost..

Searching now for your hidden inner space
Sure one day I'll find that forbidden place
What means of travel does one face
This journey from the human race
Listen sounds to tell the way
Or wait the stars to show way
Doth the soul to body say
Suppress all fears felt today
If it's thought that moves the man
Act as if your thoughts still can
God designed this travel well
So we can move through heaven or hell
To take a trip a different kind
To open a channel in your taugh mind
Inner space I need to find
God.. Please God,
Show me the way forward for I'm blind.

There is no..

There is no Sunshine, on the sun, 
There is no Love, which can't be won, 
There is no Shame, that's ever lost, 
There is no Fame, that's worth the cost.
There is no Friendship, that is too old, 
There is no Dream, one can't unfold, 
There is no Flight, some birds won't make, 
There is no Step, one shouldn't take.
There is no Pain, one can't forget, 
There is no Love, one should regret, 
There is no Cloud, can dampen spirit, 
There is no Sound, unless one hears it.
There is no Achievement, one shouldn't cheer, 
There is no Task, that one should fear, 
There is no Trouble, does not annoy, 
There is no Trust, one wouldn't enjoy.
There is no Forever, on Earth fulfilled, 
There is no Need, that can't be filled, 
There is no Truth, that won't see you thru, 
There is no Other, for me but you. 

One window..

One window is all we need ...
To understand the world that lies ahead
To see what is in store for our future
To learn about the values of sharing life
To understand the feelings of each other
To wander the world with your eyes and my heart.
To live a love so true and full
To experience the faithfulness of being closed
To change the way we are used to living
To feel good about what we do and have no regrets
To love life.

The missing piece..

O.. I long to hold, and tenderly kiss you, 
To hold you close, so very close, so not to lose you, 
To feel your hair, touch gently my face, 
Your soft warm skin, burning in lovers embrace.
This distance causes, such pain in my heart, but you already knew,
My love for you, is not whole but part, you hold a piece, the rest of the whole, the missing piece, within your soul..

To listen

And when will this longing end ?
in my mind it reverberates .. igniting excitement underneath.
thoughts of you
strikes me like lightning .. that burns my soul to flame.
Even my body trembling, shivering in hunger, profusely seeking of your being.
my mind spinning, dying of your effrontery... screaming to possess your totality.
When will this longing end I say ?
i guess time will tell me someday
It’ll be, this I pray... somewhere, somehow .. our longing will end… we’ll be together again as we used to be and you .. you will see, oO
And The Secret of success
Courage to accept your worth mercifully, respectfully, confidentially, Balance between you and everything else in life, Flexibility in letting you cross my red line and adaptability with the unknown.. To listen and to ...... communicate, to understand clearly that; I'm forever your's faithfully.

A moment in time

One moment
Alas! That one moment
I’m still waiting for it to come
My fate is slow and time is on the run
A dog is howling in despair
Someone is dying or
Maybe my death is near
I'm Trying to grab the hope
Dreams thus shattered
Soul is choked by strop
I feel like divested ground
Barren with no sight or sound
No birds, cupids or butterflies
Comes this way
Flower thus burned ashes doth flay 

Obey

As I walked through the valley of shadow and agony
I looked behind and saw no one crying
Crying and calling for me not to go
I felt empty
I felt shallow
I felt the feeling
Which I’m unable to know I’m crying with no tears
I’m wailing with no sound.. Am i came all that long long way
just to stop here.. today for the first time
mind and heart asked me to stay .. stay in shadow.
now i obey.

I did not die

Do not stand at my grave and weep 
I am not there. I do not sleep. 
I am a thousand winds that blow. 
I am the diamond glints on snow. 
I am the sunlight on ripened grain. 
I am the gentle autumn rain. 
When you awaken in the morning's hush 
I am the swift uplifting rush 
Of quiet birds in circled flight. 
I am the soft stars that shine at night. 
Do not stand at my grave and cry; 
I am not there. I did not die. 

Long journey

You need not ponder very hard  what I desire from you each day. Just devote all the love in your heart, and be faithful in every way. My love for you is genuine, I swear. no matter what I say or do 
Even when your displeasure is clear, I'll still be true to you. I love to hear you whisper, Sweet nothings in my ear. I hold you close within my arms, Chasing away all our hidden fears.
Fears from leaving my life.. Searching, struggling, willing to find
A way to live another kindness life, while indeed I'm still blind.
But no matter what I'll face in that journey.. I do except in my mind.
Now I need each moment to guide.. To where I'm supposed to be.
Because I think it's a long long journey, which I'm planning to go.. Didn't you heard my steps on the road.. From where I started to where I am today the journey has been long and tiring it's like from nothing to some thing I am today... It’s not been an easy journey.. Be patient, hold on and never ever give up on me. Our life story designed to succeed.. Hand in hand everything we will do together.

Giving up

Sometimes life is against you
You see it turning.
From dark to darker
Wishing it's just a nightmare
And soon you'll wake up.
Wishing it's just the night
And soon there will be light
But you realize you were wrong
It's all very true
It's neither a nightmare nor the night
It's just things are no longer right

Before I die..

Before I die 
I will pray to the Lord to forgive everybody's sins
And people to have a long, happy, and healthy life
I would pray to the Lord hoping that life will never ruin anybody
If life was to ruin someone, I would want it to ruin me
Before I die
I will spent my time talking to you and smile
I wouldn't try to put an angry frown on my face
I will forgive people even if they did something really disgraceful
Because it burdens me when I don't forgive someone
Before I die
I would try to make people around me happy
I would want people to view the world as if there's more kindness and less greediness
I would want the people to forgive easily and let their enemies become their friends
I would want the people around me to laugh a lot before I die
Before I die
I would make everything in peace 
So in peace as if life couldn't get any better
People will laugh more instead of cry more
People will smile instead of frowning more
I want people to be optimistic 
Before I die
I would want people to find the good things about other people and themselves
I would want the people not to judge others too quickly
I would want people to understand others even it's annoying them
I want the people to be patient and not be so greedy.
If some of these wishes came true ... I would die peacefully
When I die
I hope people wouldn't show their tears
I hope I could die while praying for you to stay happy.
And I hope that whatever I left behind
Will be something that I could remember when I look from Heaven and say.. It was a story worthwhile.

No title.

What the hell is it with some people these days, so self righteous and stuck in their selfish ways.
One rule to suit their everyday needs is all I see, no forgiveness or understanding just being petty.
I am told 'That's Life' get on with it stop moaning, but I put a foot wrong and they all start groaning.
Turning their backs their faults to ignorant to see, but its ok I don't mind i'm just human and just me.
I really do hurt and I never really feel with such pain, why not just do it over and over and over again.
I learnt from wise dad to let things pass by, he showed me I should always try... smile.. But never cry.
As much as I try to live by that rule easy its not, when people walk away and things go to pot.
I'm not a rubber ball that just bounces forever, i'm not a saint nor perfect that I will be never.
Just how much is one person expected to take, 
why do I end up with folks who are mostly fake..!!!
Why do people have to lie and steal all they can..ii
why are some petty out of their lives you they ban..!!
If I walked away when they needed me there, would it bother them and would they even care.
If I walked away without a word to them said, I know I would never again even enter their head.
But hey this is me for my sins that I cannot change
I .. Am human with feelings not a dog full of mange.
I've had all I can handle with crap and ignorance, I give up trying any more that is my preferance.
So to all those I've given my time and cared for, remember you walked I didn't close that door
When you're bored and no-one wants to hear, you're moans and winges you're loss I do fear.
For you threw away a human who once cared, he gave hir mind and heart because he dared.
To those who gave trust and know the real me, I thank you for being there and not being petty.
If you walk away in silence it is you're choice, to withhold relationship or to share you're voice.
So if by chance you should ever sit and recall, give me a thought to forgive you ... all. 

Heads in the sand..

In our lives we all have problems to hand, should we just bury our heads in the sand.
Will the problems then disappear over night, if we close our eyes do they go out of sight.
Should we cope alone inside the dark hole, living in the darkness just like the blind mole.
When we are feeling low think of the advice, we give to others remembering it has a price.
No ones lives run just as they would choose, to bury our heads friends we could lose.
Tomorrow is another day use it to repair but the problems you did ..o. It's beyond compare.
Problems are the creation of our actions, with others we can share our reflections.
To bury you're head in the sands of time, alone and feeling lost I do think is a crime.
Many problems have I not maybe drastic, I will bounce back as on a piece of elastic.
I could just run away from it all now today and hope that they will all disappear away.
But I will stand strong and try to embrace my problems for I have dignity and grace.