disappointed

Change comes so fast and leaves so slow, In the deep of my mind I believe that nothing forever last, the same daily question appears beneath dust, 
Am I ready to leave my past..!! 
Am I.. ready for any of this..!
I’m not ready
Not ready to let go
Not ready to give up
Not ready to worry
Not ready to realize things just aren’t going my way that problems just don’t go away
Not ready to cry over death
Not ready to live while counting the minutes waiting to die
Not ready to realize things are never going to be perfect
Not ready to be a leader
Not ever going to follow
Disappointed as I know.

in the eye of the beholder

Without real faithfulness satisfaction, any human can engraved to the seduce of money.
Without real gratefulness for what we have, dignity definitely will lose its meaning under the need willingly..
There is a hope beneath each border, there is a slavery behind impossible order and there is unconditional beautiful love in the eye of the be_holder. Let us open those doors, let us take off masks of vanity, humility for the others with different skin, religions or nationality no more..

the heat of the sea

The heart of a woman is as deep and calm as the sea, you feel the picture, get naked, step away your fears, and then full in the magnificent remarkable feelings with the wet of what beneath is waiting there to see, 
And as far as you can get down as much as you drown deeper, you adorable those old stuff, whispering to your senses,.. To swim with the flow, nothing here to catch...  All forbidden to touch,
The heart of a woman took my breath away

dream in a dream

in the early morning fog, as if in a dream, seeing the morning glories opening, and everything looks so much like spring... and the early morning air brings your scent to me and somehow I know that the voice that I hear in the deep of my graves mind is real...
Yours.. Yours and sincere.
And at the end of your dress there is a light, as if you collect all dawn of life to fight... the innocence of dying
Yet.. Under the ground there is a spirit wounding in the valley of shadows...
To feel or not to feel... in this unmitigated meandering of our bodies... like a wildness in the longing in its readiness for a tenderness kill,
bone in or bone out.... flesh innocent in its fulfillment, in the different colors of our skin
gyrating in the warmth... of our time capsule, waiting...  waiting for an answer..!
to feel or not to feel, the innocence of our dying feelings.. In the early morning fog..  As if in a dream.

dance with me

A beautiful dance will be, if only we could dance together all around this world
A dance of beauty to make this world sing, where enlightenment not just another ring
A dance of love to spread it all over the poverty..where I want is forbidden and the need become forgiven..

I don't know..

You give me that special feeling that I’ve never felt before.
You’re all I want- Nothing less, nothing more.
I fall for you more and more every day.
I don’t want to lose you, no way!
When I’m with you, everything else around disappears.
When I think about not being with you, I break out in tears.
I smile a lot to cover the pain.
I smile so much, some may think I’m insane.
I can’t help but to think about you.
I never know what you’re going to do.
You’re so unpredictable... But it’s ok, it’s cool.
My feelings for you are strong.
Weather we’re just friends, or more, I don’t want anything to go wrong.
I inked my thoughts to show how I feel... But nothing is false, it’s all entirely real.
Why so many? I do not know.
Letting my feelings out of my heart, somehow gives it more room to grow.
I can’t keep everything bottled up inside... My true heart, I shall not hide.

what they accepted and what I always denied

Covering truths with clever lies was what they accepted and what I always denied, fed upon...  towards a large door intently placed half mast, Which knocked me to the ground leaving me to see how I'm not blessed...
The solar system swirling all around and up above my head.. And yet I in my mind continued to wander amidst confusion and denial... That love could such a cruel thing intently do.!
Until reality made me see the dream,
Until waking to the reality of what a fool I'd been,

there is no bubbles inside the mirror

I see you cry from being hurt... Turn away for things equivalent to dirt
I was never there to make you happy ... Never once glanced to catch you laughing
Your days alone and being depressed... Blaming it on work is what I stressed
I never came back to you and shared your tears... I never was caring and soothed your fears
Life crashes down and you always ache, I was so irresponsible and called you my mistake,  I was always trying to make you someone else... Sitting in the corner talking to myself
"I never realized the person I've become... Staring at this mirror on the wall heart beating like a drum
I set everything in front of you and put you in the past... Everyone was first and you were always last, Now... I've come to understand you are all thats left"
Glancing over my mistakes tears rolling to my ches, My stomach is turning over my thoughts sinking in... 0 Blood falling from my nose trickling down my skin. . My eyes are swollen shut from this endless weeping sorrow
Knowing I was fake just for fun, mouth so dry I cannot swallow
tears shed from my selfishness enough for someone to drown
I rest my head in my arm knowing it is the end
No one deserve to be broken stuck with nothing left to mend.

nothing left to mend

My eyes are swollen shut from this endless weeping sorrow,
Knowing I was fake just for fun, mouth so dry I cannot swallow, tears shed from this selfishness enough for someone to drown, I picture in my mind how weak I became with a face of frown,
I rest my head in my arm knowing it is the end, No one deserve to be broken... stuck with nothing left to mend.

love me...

Where we dwell, in holiest bowers, Where angels of light thinking I'm the slower,
Where sighs of devotion and breathings of your sun flowers...
O god, I'm in heaven ... Do not disturb the calm of Lover, It well might deceive such hearts as ours.
Love stood near the shore in silent leaves the cloud fight the tour  with wandering wings, and wounding eyes...
Love now warms thee, waking and sleeping, for he tinges the heavenly fount with his weeping..... Love is the Saint enshrined in thy breast and angels themselves would admit such a guest,  for there will be a time. To saw what was harvest.

drawn out by tears

In the morning of life, when its cares are unknown, And its pleasures in all their new lustre begin.... When we live in a bright beaming world of our own, and the light that surrounds us is all from within;
O... believe me, in that happy time we can love, as in hours of less transport we may, of our smiles, of our hopes.. But affection is truest when these fade away.
When we see the first glory of youth pass us by, like a leaf on the stream that will never return, when our cup, which had sparkled with pleasure so high, then.... , then in the time when affection holds sway, with a depth and a tenderness joy never knew love like that way, and among pleasures, is faith as they, for the love born of Sorrow, like Sorrow, is true.
In climes full of sunshine, though splendid the flowers, the cloud and the mist of our own mind of showers
That call the rich spirit of fragrancy forth.... So it is not 'mid splendour, prosperity, mirth,
That the depth of Love's generous spirit appears when the soul of its sweetness is drawn ... Drawn out by tears.

Move on

When your love will start to fade, and the dream about "forever in my heart" deeply ingraved.
when with you there are a lot of pain, when apart of you will crying as rain.
When you are confused because of how you feel... if you dont move on you wont heal.
just smile and let go... and be with the friends and family that love you so.
it will take time to find your true love but just be yourself and be tru and then your true love will come to you.

life goes on... seriously

If you don't take this seriously, how are we gonna work this out, nothing seems right, I'm not thinking straight, for bright light blind my eyes... it feels like everything is fake
my bone is crashing my vain,
my heart is pumping blade,
my luck is all gone
my steps is in unknown hand
I can't change what happened or force my wish to come true... it's all insanity
I'm trapped into nowhere,
I'm straggling to find the road that mislead me to lose you
I'm in anger
I feel all desperate ... I feel all alone and there is nothing to go from here.. there is no hope for some reason you just don't get it, I'm giving you all the sign but it seems I'm not worth it
I can't spell the word and tell you that i love you in this useless connection, or even say our loud that i need and miss you
It's just a boring life I'm living without you
there is so many time I wished up on a star or wanted to kiss you but you were so fare... I guess it's destine to never meet you in this life
I have no chance with you, No matter how hard i try.. No matter what i do
you just won't get it, 
you left me no other choice
you gave me no reason to stay.
I think i have to get on with the truth... there is no "we" no more.

Finally home...

Finding where my young years and my strength are like finding memories from afar
Finding where my mind has gone is finding what i shouldn't done
Finding where my loyalties lie is like to search to find where the bluebirds fly
Finding where the rainbows end
Finding where the oceans blend
Finding the path that leads back in time ... Is finding my home
Finding a quiet and calming place... Is finding my home 
Finding my home... Is finding you beside.

i trust no more in what i hear

To the first time in my grown.. i feel like this anger inside me must to be shown, I'm completely tired from trying, each and every sense inside me seems as drained and dying... with this mind full of questions to where can hide or even flying.
No name, no address, no city or country Oh... how am i supposed to trying..!
I may not be smart but sure I'm not stupid to asking so many questions with a face full of shying.

Dream of hope

fold your light in my eyes... vanish the darkness of my life... wipe up pain away from me..
Green the heart of garden, light up the heart of this dark city... Flap flap with pigeon wings.
I need to see you when I'll sink ... in the center of the sea.. my only island. wherever I sail east or west I'll find nothing but your arms to hold me.. Open your heart to hug me, wipe up friendly my concern and sadness... kindness words will ink by tears.
O, my dear please talk about me, tell stories about those so long paths I've been walk through... let this dream of hope comes true... let the impossible be near of my hands, The dream was a dove will given birth the day after doom ... after the resurrection and it shall Aiming peace at the shore..
fold your light in my eyes... vanish the darkness of my life... wipe up pain away from me..

Time.. My dear

When one's thoughts were a mix and grate... of doubts and fears, of sadness and tears ... For all the things that have happened in the last few years.
I thought of our precious time which have gone with fight... Wondering, if what we were doing, was right.
Would we'll return home to our loved ones some day, Or would our names be carved on that wall, forever to stay.
I thought of how I stood before so many died ending Wall... And saw all the names that one's call... all those people were so dear, It was impossible for me to hold back a tear... I I accepted irony and bitterness O.. i even still hears its tone,
Paying with my blood for a game where you weren't alone... It seemed as if I heard each one of them say, "For your Tomorrow, we gave our Today." but what about yesterday... do you forget about ..
Yesterday I done things that pleased others, I had past my youth era, I hate things that hurt me. And did today I do things that pleased myself, Am I shall change things under my control for I am wiser than yesterday. 
Should I wait tomorrow to change what I have done wrong, shall I do more that I can envisioned and will I become a legend because I dare to dream big.
No dear... life taught me that happy are those whom appreciated what yesterday had brought, plan for things to do today for tomorrow what might bring us is eternal peace of mind.
So let us treasure and value our time now, for time ... time becomes priceless when we take things for granted, time becomes meaningless when we face our final moment of our dead and time becomes tomorrow heaven when we treasure the present moment.

Ship and sea..

Thousands stars shone out that night, around their placid queen;
A ship hath can't left the shore, for Where shall that good ship must be,
Ere fill the moon one bright horn more..!!
Deep... deep in the booming sea... The moon shone calmly bright upon this restless hearts
Bowing heard you not, but now... A wild unearthly silently cry
They ask with troubled strength, breathless and a tears in the eye
What's your fears..... ? 
For there is no long time enough to catch you hands and smell the breeze with every night.... And slow moves our ship with her wings of white,
O.. ! It's so hard dream then until the change so soon to be, and hundreds songs of longing spreads on the deep and booming sea..
The waves are hushed and blue, But where... Ogod, where is she, The good ship with her gallant crew..?
Deep.... down in the booming sea..!

Free but hollow

Falling apart is a cycle of life one we must all follow... tearing at the seams
seeing that we are all hollow, and .. and you are only free when you die ... that is why you start to really live when you die, but people die for foolish reasons like war, money, and drugs
why is this world corrupt...?
why am i living in a hell..?
We just want out of this hell, but we're not allowed
so what do we continue to live in hell to take the pain of living always savoring the freedom of dying, i believe that dying is living but living is something else... it's just you who need to believe.

Still you ... Speak with their mouth.

Some people speak with their mouth and most of the words are not true
Some people speak with their eyes and most people think the words are true
Some people speak with their heart and most people know the words are true, they feel it they act and live in this world of honesty, So, when you speak, speak with your heart and people will believe you,