disappointed

Change comes so fast and leaves so slow, In the deep of my mind I believe that nothing forever last, the same daily question appears beneath dust, 
Am I ready to leave my past..!! 
Am I.. ready for any of this..!
I’m not ready
Not ready to let go
Not ready to give up
Not ready to worry
Not ready to realize things just aren’t going my way that problems just don’t go away
Not ready to cry over death
Not ready to live while counting the minutes waiting to die
Not ready to realize things are never going to be perfect
Not ready to be a leader
Not ever going to follow
Disappointed as I know.