Silence prayer.

The coolest thing in kneeling to god, is that you whispering your prayers into the ground. And it's heard by he who in the sky.. O God.. 

If you had a rose for every sorry, you'd have to picke a whole field.

My love for her will last forever,  
Her skin against mine as soft as a feather,
This love can last threw any weather.
Her hands in mine,
Fingers tangled like twin, Hands running through hair,
Trying to make Her aware, Of how much I love her,
Me and her together all night, Holding her so very tight,
and when I'm with her,
Everything seems all right,
Her beauty shines,
Like the brightest light.
She made my heart soar like a kite,  
And fly like a bird,
My heart so high,
But when She said those Words my heart fell straight outta the sky,
Why did She have to hide or lie,
Why did She have to make me sigh, cry, and want to die.
My heart hit the ground, pieces flew all around.
She smashed it to dust,  And left me to rust
You put my heart back together,
You promised me,
You would be with me forever. 

Confusion

Have you ever been in a state of confusion.!!
In which all your emotions set the illusion,
That you don't know how you're feeling and you don't know what you want.!
Even if you don't realize it it's terrible when it's you those bad thoughts haunt,
In my opinion confusion is far worse than pain,
Trying to figure it out could definitely cause great strain,
Sitting and wondering what to do or what the confusion is about,
To me not knowing makes me afraid of what I may find out,
I'm not saying I can't handle what's dealt to me but still I can't say I like it,
The best I can do is try to ignore my feelings otherwise I'd have a fit,
I'm pretty sure this feeling has happened to almost everybody,
Confusion of your feelings or whatever it may be,
But I hope not too often or some may end up just like me... 

Abandonment

Some people say 'Things will get better!,
As far as I'm concerned my eyes will just get wetter,
The tears that fall are often mis_shed,
At least that's what I think when I lie my head...
Others say 'Life's good, don't be a bust',
But when you're ignored so often that it's hard to trust...
There's not often something to help the lust...
That I have to be important in this world when I'm less than dust...
No matter what people say trying to convince me,
In my own life that I'm 'The Key',
I respond with 'Then I'm the key without a lock,
Because no matter what I'm behind the 'flock' '...
Every time I find someone important, to an extent,
I know I'm always gunna' end up with abandonment

Day dream door

Once a day and sometimes more
I look out my day dream door
I wished you to come to me in my dreams, and then by day I shall be well again.
For then the night will more than pay... The hopeless longing of the day. 
Inside of me there is snow melting down, and lots of mud and slush around, 
I know the grass will surely sprout and birds and flowers will come about.
But why oh why does it take so long.?
I'm sure the calendar can't be wrong.
Someday Sunshine will fill my heart with cheer
I wish that winter are really here.
Wake up.! 
close the door.!

Good night.! !!!! !!!

I think of my loved one as a shining star,
Looking down with tenderness from afar.
I'm never alone as long as I believe
There are blessings here for me to receive.

Too much pride leads nowhere.!

Behind the facade of our big egos we constantly do hide
And pride of five letters is only that just pride
And some will even tell you pride comes before a fall
From life we have been learning from before we learned to crawl,
The thing we refer to as pride not easily understood
A little pride is necessary but too much pride not good
Pride can lead to big egos and snobbish self conceit
A truly humble person is one you don't often meet
The self opinionated and self conceited never known to be rare
Those who promote their egos in the bigger World out there
From the seeds of a big ego success is often grown
A humble quiet achiever is one I have not known
A little pride is necessary and self esteem okay
But too much pride can lead to arrogance and that seems sad to say,

Your strength..

 As long as you think I am, Then I shall forever be,
For I am everything for you, I am what you make of me.
I am no longer who I was, For you turned my life around,
You hold me tight to my sanity, And keep my feet upon the ground.
When the world begins to spin, And daylight turns to night,
I know your love surrounds me, And I know I'll be all right.
And when my sun refuses to shine, And there are no stars up in my sky,
You'll be the anchor to my sailing ship or spread my wings and help me fly.
When my world has no direction and I know not where to turn,
You'll be my shelter in the storm of life's hard lessons learned.
When the colors of my rainbow become black and white as I feel,
I know I can count on you to remind me of what is real.
for you ...
You are the breath I breathe whenever I start to drown,
You are the one who finds me when I'm no where to be found.
Without you I am nothing for you are everything to me,
You are the force that sustains me and gives me life eternally.
Where ever I walk in this world you are always at my side,
Never would you let me give up without ever having tried.
For this and many more.. I give my thanks to you,
For without you beside me I could never see this through.
As long as you are with me I will survive this time,
You lend to me your strength.. And help me to make it mine.

I will never walk alone again

One day I found myself.. standing at the edge of good-bye, looking over the canyon of my life
Waiting there to die.
I felt so lost and empty inside.. alone, like no one would care, No one in my life to love.. My heart filled with despair.
I stood at the very edge..  and lifted my face up to the sky, I stood there at that very edge..  and prayed to God I'd die.
Everywhere I seemed to turn.. 
My life filled up with pain,
My days were filled with agony
My nights fell down like rain.
The only arms to hold me.. Belonged to this body of mine, I curled hard within myself..  to my empty heart I was resigned.
And then one day as I sat.. curled tight and all alone.. I felt a warmth stirring, that turned my heart from stone.
This light shone down on me.. And warmed my very soul, It brought a love into my heart.. and made me feel whole.
I felt two arms encompass me and lift me to my feet, this love that spoke to me.. said we would not accept defeat.
Together we will face this world.. and all it brings our way, no longer will you walk alone.. for life starts anew this day.
From now on when you need shelter from this storm of life, I'll be the one to hold you.. for I want you for my life.
When you need love and comfort.. I'll be there to light your way, Just let my arms protect you.. and I'll be here every day.
Never will you be cold or feel lost or all alone.
Just let my love surround you for my love is deeper than you've known.
And with her declaration of this love so grand,
I felt my heart begin to thaw as I began to understand.
No longer would I walk as one or face this world alone, for with this love she gave to me.. I am more loved than I've ever known.
And now when I stand at that edge.. and stare out over all I see, I know I'll never be afraid for I feel her love surrounding me.
She'll keep me safe from harm and love me unconditionally, And all I need to do in return
Is let her give her love to me.
Though she asks for nothing in return
I gladly give her my heart,
I will never walk alone again
For she resides within my heart..

blind souls

I hide me well, every day,
Forever in disguise I’ll stay.
I’ll smile away the tears that fall,
I’ll show no sign of weakness at all.

never let your ego, lead you to dead end.

Desiring things, decrease their occurrence in perception while potentially increasing
their occurrence in reality.. when there is a point where desireing and potentials gets dead end, and we start to no longer care.. take your time for in this game only death will win.

good day, good night and goodbye.

So naked I want you to stand in front of me
Full of hope and full of fear
Locked in my arms and you'll glow all the night
Loneliness... will no longer real
My breath caresses strands of your hair
My palms touches your hungry skin
It will be an evening of hurting hearts,
That life has put together.. to heal.

Eternally and a day.

Sometime last night while sleeping out loud your name I cried, Because while lying next to you last night sometime I died.
My spirited lifted up from me above that bed of ours, I floated high above you and watched you sleep for hours.
I felt the tears that fell as they washed over my face, for I longed to be held tightly in your warm loving embrace.
I didn't want to leave you there to face your life alone, For ours has been the greatest love this world has ever known.
I knew how sad that you would be when you woke and found I'd died, I wanted so to be there while you hold me close and cried.
And then I felt this light on me
And I knew my time was near,
And the angels to come and carry me
And take me far from here.
I whispered into the night a tiny prayer for you,
For you to be strong for me and hold my love close to you.
At that time I felt the angels lift me high into the night, I watched you sleeping peacefully as I flew into that light.
Until there before me stood into God angles, Who spoke them words to me, they told me not to worry much for greater god'd watch over you lovingly.
And that one day it would be your time to come home here to me, and when that time came about we would share truly eternity.
So please my love when you wake and find my lifeless form,
Please don't cry unduly, for my love will keep you warm eternally and a day.

Don't offer your love..

Do not mention the name of love, O my simple minded companion.
Strange is the path; When you offer your love.
Your body is crushed at the first step.
If you want to offer love
Be prepared to cut off your head and sit on it.
Be like the moth, which circles the lamp and offers its body.
Be like the deer, which, on hearing the horn, offers its head to the hunter.
Be like the partridge, which swallows burning coals in love of the moon.
Be like the fish, which yields up its life when separated from the sea.
Be like the bee, entrapped in the closing petals of the lotus.

Untitled..!

I write every word with hope, that you will read it one day
It will be my chance
To explain
To show you
How it really felt
To see you radiant
To make you smile
To feel for one second, you were only mine
The rays of your love that never fade, our world unaware was of it all
The nights brought the passion
The days promptly stole
Without the words, conversation flowing
But please tell me, are we failed in the end, to keep it going

falling leaves..

Like a candle burning on a window sill
In the darkness of the night admist silence
He lies in quiet desperation in hopes that a falling star will shine its light of mercy upon his broken dream,
It was the high of love that didn't last
The chaotic fluster of emotion drifting from his thoughts, through his veins and into his bleeding heart,
As tears of innocence softly caress his cheek
Falling behind time, upon the candles flames in attempt to dim the fires bright passion,
Reflecting the anger behind a missing kiss, the shadows behind a series of laughter face to face.
Now in a solitude of darkness, with only the glimmer of the moon sneaking through a window
And a flicker of the candle's last light,
A calming fills his soul, like a tree that grows and stands alone,
Strong and mighty against the battles of thunderstorms and fierce winds
A thing of natural ugliness
A piece of art when the sun shines its rays through his falling leaves, 
Even in the darkness of night the moon start to fade away... 
Day after day, alone, tall and strong but 
People will see him; an uglyl tree of failed dreams.

Promise

I knows I'll see you... in this side, or another

being..!

What Is the difference between a daydream and pretend..!!!
Both memories that fade away
Both moments that were created as a ways to an end, Whether to fall into slumber or leave reality
What’s the difference with either creativity..!
You can dream you live miles away,
Pretend you are everything you are not
You can dream you are rich,
Pretend that your fears will stop
You can dream that you are in love
Pretend that you are famous,
You know what your soul is made out of
You can pretend these hopes do not matter
But 
What is the difference..?
Who is to say.?
You can spend eternity pretending and dreaming your life away.. without a single day can count as alive.. for when you are alive..!!
You create dreams among many other things and the despair inbetween.
You hold on to hope, keep you warm like a sleeve, dry your tears so you may cope.
You learn kindness for, family, friends even for your beloved to help in your adventure, to stay by you till the end..
For when you are alive, one thing you will need
It is love, 
To envelop you
To flourish you from just a seed, from just a daydreamer or a pretender to be alive again.

Qualm the joy that life may bring

Does anything ever changes..?
The days that slow go bye
And the ones you wish to tell
The tears you watch them cry
The plans you have
The truths to see
The hopes you savor
Ever cease to be
Qualm the joy that life may bring
Or the time ... to remembering
Last the joke that is undone
Stop the ever, setting sun
Watch tomorrow slowly become today
And like untold speech, stay the same... same way.

losing trust..

If you sit down at set of sun and count the acts that you have done to this very humble someone,
And, counting, find
One self-denying deed, 
One word that eased the heart of him who heard,
One glance most kind
That fell like sunshine where it went, 
Then you may count that days in nothing you ... spent.
But if, through all the livelong day, you've cheered no heart, by here ot there, yea or nay
If, through it all you've nothing done that you can trace, that brought the sunshine to one face,
No act most small
That helped some soul and nothing cost,
Then count that day as worse than lost.

You.. yes you.!

Unknown destination, unseen morrow to the unawake dream of the thoughts unborn, In the island with a small firmament into the hidden truth, saturated from humans deception.. like what..!!!!
Like the fish in the lake of the dark night,
King to self, slave to water and servant to the god

A day without you

Amazing you are to me,
a life without your smile or voice... I find it hard to live.
Precious you are to me,
a life without your touch. I find it hard to adore.
It feels like a huge massive hole has, been digged in my heart.
a life without you will never be the same all an all.
I've been teared apart the day you walked out on me.
I never found a meaning to uphold my wishes without you... 
I strongly feel that missing you is a job I shouldn't have resingned from.
That's why I say..!
never give up on someone you, can't go a day without thinking about.

Human Rights

My rights, yours rights, our rights.. Human Rights
From a mechanic shop came a cry of a boy...
What are my rights..?
Education or being a mechani..!!
From a house came a cry of a girl...
What are my rights..?
Doing the household work like a slave or education..!
From a house came a cry of a women...
What are my rights..?
Being made a slave or a free citizen..!
From a poor countries came a cry of  striving human....
What is his rights..?
To watch his national resource absorbed, or fight for his dying rights...!
My rights, your rights. our rights.. is do the right, 

The road..

The road ahead is long, but keep on moving.
I know, it is hard to follow along, but just put one foot ahead the other and you will make it.
The is path narrow, but keep strong.
You'll be there soon!
Yes, i konw the path is bumpy, but just keep walking onward.
Life is what you call this narrow path, It is full of trails, making you go over bump after bump, but remember to keep moving forward.
For you're almost there.!

My dove

Pour your light beam in my eyes to vanish the darkness of the years. 
Remove my pain, 
turn this garden blossom, 
turn on the light to this city of shadows.. 
Flutters.. flutters with dove wings. 
For I need you to become "when I'll sinking in that deeply universe sea", My island. 
Whatever I'll go west, 
whatever I'll go east.. 
I can't find anyone to hugging me but you. 
Opening you heart to conjoin me, 
Wipe up my carefree with your cordiality and affection 
When tears shed will give the permission to our words to have a meaning, beyond .. O
And only longing tears will speech. 
The paths we go through were so long, but.. 
sooner we will achieve our dream of wishful thinking.. 
sooner we will be near from the impossible. 
The dream within my heart is like a dove, 
A dove raising after the resurrection, to scatters peace on the sea shore. 
pour your light beam in my eyes, 
Vanish the darkness of the years, 
Remove the pain, turn this garden blossom..

lying..

You lied and enjoying  play games, I'm honest and never pretending.
You flirt, I'm hurt.
You wanted me to be something with value, I needed you if you are nothing but my wife.
You forgot, to remember, I remember and barely forget.
You promised none, I keep my words to anyone.
You stopped everything, I started something.
You're done, I'm trying.
You said you loved me... hay... Stop lying,
You should repear this until we will meet..
"Big or small..  lies are lies"

Come here to rest..

The night draws in, birds no longer fly.
I sit with a coffee and the only sound is my sigh.
my thoughts... drifting through, the memory of you.
Why does life turn around,
when the best you think you've found.
I look to the sky, and take a deep breath,
Dear God tell me why... why you send me along the rocky roads, when i yearn to be on the flat.
I guess ill get used to that. 
I think of tears, upon our fears.. 
I would love to hold on all my longing, but i know at some points we all need space.
maybe in few months to come, we may meet again, not in dreams but in reality.. 
things may be different, or they may be the same.
but deep in my heart, 
I'll still carry a flame... flame of hope to find a reasonable cause for all this nonsense actions.. 
I'll still carry a flame... flame of Moonlight to let you find me in that darkness road .. 

hate me not.

I can see it in there eyes, They feel nothing towards me aside from hate.
I look away from them in emotional pain and at the same time accept it.
For, this has long been my fate.. 
To actually know me is an ideal they long since dismissed, They are unable to see that I have done nothing to them, I am hated merely because I exist or maybe because of my color skin, anyway..
I do not want them to feel that way but when i look at their stone faces, I am forced to turn away
So now I beg of you, Please...
Please don't hate me.

In life, we can't satisfy everyone..

Life is something that is unknown
Life is something that is yet to be shown
Life is planned by the decisions we make
Life is made by the things you fake
Life is a thing that cannot be explained
Life has still a while to be made
Life is inspired by the people we see
Life is about the friends we meet
Life is filled with friends and family
Life is to be taken very carefully
Life is about the people we'll left
Life is being hear, listen not being deaf
Life is not a stream of qualifications
Life is an experience to take in consideration
Life may be made by experiences or by school
Life may not always be cool
Life has bad times that create suffering and pain
Life has good times that won't be gain
Life will always bring you down, until you learn the leason and stand up, again.

Inspiration place

In the heavens the angels sing
Purple organs and little things
Song goes along with the moon ring
Fly by on their silver wings
Greece.. 
Growing power, smiling flower
Inspiration place, beautiful face
Incomplete dreams, waiting in the dark, that hidden light beams
blue and white, feelings glow bright
brilliant mind, sensitive but not kind
In the heaven, the angels sing,
purple orangs and.. little things.

After a long day.. 0059

After a long day I wish to relax and unwind and get away from the pressure pf everyday tedious life, So I can calm my restless soul with encouraging lessons and words and hush the voices of concerning echoes in my mind..
After a long day I want to enjoy fully moments of peace and serenity thinking aboit you, And absorb the warmth of care even it's still seems unfair, So I can unburden my agitated spirit and build enough stamina to finally reach the finish line on this narrow path called a restless life.
After a long day I don't want to feel burdened by mishaps, misunderstanding and mistakes but I wish to gather positive words and emotional strength to capture the beauty and purity of the moments and build the blocks of hope to pass through hurdles and unwind and to have the strength to builds from it, the bridge needs to explore your hidden treasures someday.

Marriage is a Union of two.

She sings like a playing set of happy flute, her sweet voice is a cure in my ears.
And I heard her singing with all the sweetest tones; that pleasing voice of her, to me brings joyful tears..!
Behold upon her lovely lips are spring flowers, on her bright face is the softness of rose petals
The smoothness of her cheeks are of summer bloomers, and her beauty is like the spring blooming florals.
The sweetness of her soul carries my mind away and the kindness of her heart touches my feelings
The gentleness of her spirit brightens my day, and the goodness in her awakens my mornings.!
Yet as a bear sleeps in snow for the next warm spring, so shall my love wait for i truly love you,  and true love's patient, endurng years of waiting..
And steadfast for the long waited union of two.!

C, C, C and reality

Cowardly is he who knows the reality and tries to escape from it.
Careless is he who knows the reality and chooses to ignore it.
Courageous is he who knows the reality and stands to face it.

Hollow.

Moments in oue life filled with hopes in morrow,
Then the pain that follow,
leaves us very .. hollow,
Each road we talked ended so narrow,
Others know; the look being, different than they .. 
not better not smarter not prettier.. just us and a hearts full of sorrow.

Into the unknown .. 0060

step by step I will push threw this
threw all of the obstacles of life
this world keeps spinning around and around
beating me down down into the ground
I started fighting back, So hard to move my feet
but step by step, I’ll this world beat,
I'll win this war, for i've been designed to succeed.
I will rise... rise from the darkness which blending my eyes, rise from the ashes which burning my heart, rise into the light, step by step yet it will be in time.. then maybe 
I will finally escape..
from the darkness,
from the spinning,
from the obstacles,
from this world... into the unknown but, who wants to live forever.!

You have a brain.. use it.!

There is nothing wrong with not knowing who you are
You are not written like a book or painted from a single canvas, nor balanced like some perfect zen 
There is no rule to follow, no category you must fill in..
You have your own two legs to sidestep
You can be different every minute if you wish and you do not need to be criticized or try to fix what others say is wrong.
You can cry when you have no reason
You can wish when you have no hope
You can laugh when all is silent
You can breath when fear is stuck down your throat
There is nothing wrong with not knowing who you are... Not a single little thing, for i truly care.

Meeting with my father

A father's voice directs me, It soothes me and it's kind,
My trusted voice of reason, to cultivate my mind,
Close my eyes and hear him, He whispers in my ear,
That gives me all the confidence to chase off any fear,
Remember all he's taught me, It's easy if I try,
If no longer with us, his wisdom will never die,
I can't imagine loose my dad... is tragic, He didn't want to part,
So I always keep his wisdom, Alive within my heart,
The world I decided to travel is somehow new to me but I see it a crown,
I have to carry on, he lives on in my memories, And always praise him every dawn,
So as I wake each morning think of what he'd say,
Remember how he loved me to live my life that way,
He'll always be here with me for his thoughts within my heart,
Praise him in my memory even we'll through my journey.. be apart.

Clarity in love.

Until some rules to us have come, and understood by 'everyone'... under the Sun,
Will there then be a need to exchange... Respect for all, without the name calling or the playing of games.
Knowing that a thoughtfulness given is returned as expected, with a respect that is the same reflected.
Until all our moods that we carry are dismissed and diffused, And released are those conflicting attitudes,
Shall we then have a reason to obey and say, The direction we all are headed towards, affords brighter days to come to stay.
Too many of us have so much we distrust, those promising yesterdays of hope and joy... Seem to have drifted away from us day by day..
Until some rules to us have come, and happiness experienced is a wish for everyone specially us,
There will be no one to witness a life to fully rejoice, or decide to gather fulfillment with one voice, If the choice that is made indicates, there is a decay of love, then clarity will cure all the self-illness above.

Dreams

You can dream of the best things in life, but
if you do not have the courage to make it a reality, it will always remain a dream,

Perplexity

Time changes, changes every thing from truth to beauty, every thing is moving from love to morality,
Love is now a butterfly from this flower to that flower to flatter by
This flower does not have, That flower might have the desired pleasure.
This cave does not have surprises, that cave might have the wonder.!
Morality is now... 
A make up box, a mask
A means to meet the selfish end
A weapon man made
Twist and turn to suit the whimsical trade. In the periphery of divinity now men is the guide, The car of the morality men now drive.
Truth remains not a truth at all, It keeps changing with time and place, Losing its beauty and divine grace..
In the eyes and minds beauty is very restless from the beginning permanently remains only the perplexity,
In the life of bewilderment absolute is the paradoxical irony.

Giving up isn't an option

Sing that song which heals your heart
When you have lost everything yet there is always a new start
Giving up is the easy route but you'll always missing a part
Share your pain
Bare your load
If you can get up from falling, you know you are there
If you are so low, you need to tell an ear that will care
The course of our lives can be incredibly unfair
Go with it, Be with it, Fight it... If you can
You've been through too much but you will do it again and again
Let each ache bring you closer to living
Do not give up, find your gift of giving
Share thy feelings let others see Your will to live
Are we ever able to forgive..?
You have done your all
So smile

The imp visiting me.

Pain in body, pain in soul, pain in mind; Pain of labor, pain from emotion,
or pain from a wound; 
Fear of a crowd or of being alone; fear of fact, or fear of the unknown.
Whatever you do never let fear grow, take a moment to pray;
Take the rod or take the staff and send the imp away from the way.

Technology and society

Save Our Children from Technology, They are totally addicted to it for It appears to be Priority.
Just so young; A child is handed ... A phone to keep it amused by Technology,
 Then it begins... A laptop for school, An ipad for school, Is the teacher teaching or the Technology..!!
The beeps
The dings
Another message sent
Nothing is completed, Stuff just hidden away, Having to be reminded again, Another day
Relaxation
A book
Simply just living, All stolen by Technology
Can it get better or will it get worse
Technology... 
Amazing but Is it really a curse..!
We all love it cannot live without it
But, what is technology doing to Society..?