I'm sorry

I'm sorry 
I failed to be in time as a man
I'm responsible for this situation
I can't live without you
and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.

In a world where love has no doors opened

When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind
will be driven to madness.
how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..!
Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.

Good night, shooo

Let it Rain

I gave you myself, the mine, I and me but I'm not a toy for you to play, to use, then go on your way
I'm here for your amusement, but I don't have to accept the abuse you sent
I'm a person, if you can believe, I'm for your sadness to... relieve, I've feelings too, just like you, well your supposed to
I except to be for you something to wipe your feet on but I.. am.. not here for to beat on, 
You cant steal more feelings of me anymore, I left in shadows, but I closed that door.
Maybe I'm nothing, worthless, useless or even dead, but as you said " I'm nothing then Who you are..!!"
See, I'm a person, I've a name, I'm not a toy, in a game.

For a second, close your eyes and see.

If you think when the mind took over your actions, you will grew stronger. and then the heart wouldn't hurt any longer. O, so please answer me..!
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart chooses blindly to hide..!
why does the head never agree, why can't the heart ever see..!
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak...!
why won't the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead.

Depression

Being in love is something people say they can handle, but is it true ?
Some people say that to be in love is very confusing, ... is it really ?
Some people say that love is something that cannot be handled with care you have to be responsible enough to understand the meaning of the word.....
So what is next ?
You tell me... for depression is a feeling too, That you get inside of your heart, is a place that hurts... something self cannot get passed with any art.

restless soul in ....

It is like a puzzle... you have to find all of the right pieces.
It is a game ... it can be taken literally or it cannot be taken literally..
It is confusing sometimes....  Only if you have the hang of things and if not then you will be lost and never find your way back..!
Life..! 
Why i feels like losing self control.. O

Egyptian Nile

Long after sunset I saw seven doves fly in a line, low over the waters of the Egyptian Nile.
They followed a path laid down by the moon to bring them home safe to where Nbms laying in his final destination.
Alone out of time in my mind’s eye ... still they fly, as they always flew low, over the Nile
in single file homeward to Nbms, who dwells in a humble house at the further end of the silver path to the moon.

Our heavenly gate

If not for poverty, could I turn great.?
If not for miseries, could I change fate.?
If not for enemies, could I be sane.?
If not for evil minds, could I God gain.?
Some people complaining from poverty while poverty for me is best teacher;
Some people are so greedy when selflessness has been my best helper;
Some deal with life as misery while my miseries have been my best lover;
Some forgot about God, when my love of God has been my best Master.
I'm not planing to be great, or even change my fate.. Just a simple life in our heavenly gate.

In a deep sleep

You think life is neither an illusion or a field for battle..!
Yet in my world it’s a going on journey though different kinds of people which may not feel it like the way they do not know anything about what happens around them.... When they are in deep sleep.

special kind of home

If I count the heads under this weakness body, O.. They are many under my shed
All poor minds and weak personality, just to avoid torture my shadow they seek
They choose my shelter to taste justice and to get fresh air away from the greed, letting them deeds out, behind the wall.
With an open door where I lay like home for wretched and poor minds.

The clown

Sometimes while acting like a clown, I make you laugh, wondering how stupid I'm.
 Sometimes the bad man in me, craving my mind,  burning my blood in vain, hopping to makes you cry.
May be you are angry with this wards again, but one day I shall make you feel, I was something in your life, rare to find with different standards for what you have learned about humans.
When the original me... go missing and laid down somewhere between your world and shadows of my forbidden kingdom , never to come back again asking me, who was the fool and who...  Was the clown.

I want to die

Out of love... I can take tricks and schemes butt from the beautiful faces even the I... won't take lies..
When she says She loves life and I see her eyes said ‘' I want to die ‘'.. O dear know what..!  in this world this is a great lie.
My lady in heart every one likes to live honestly no matter in what conditions, this is the quirky charm of life... none can den, the beauties of life lie not only on possessions or in physical comforts,
beauties of life lie even in thoughts full of my being while brings a glimpse of your missing tenderness, in seeing hibernated in the hand of our destiny, in listening to the melody of my wounds waving over my flute of fears, in feeling words can't describe.
life produces a mysterious music out of whatever is the flute.. even if we are not in the right position yet, we are enjoying the mysterious music of life and still we can dance with the tune of clarity.
so please... stop tell a lie ‘' I want to die ‘' or "it's time to say goodbye"
keep dancing with tune of life.. lets the wind blow and the rain to come down and see in wonder how nice is the rainbow meeting the humble ground.

In the shell of your memories

Am I afraid of falling ... Am I now at the edge of the abyss .. The identity of loss and absence ... I am afraid to fall in it forced to run away from the past, so I attached myself to a dark unknown present .. I do not see anything ..For fear of tampering with the past and his wounds, for which my soul was bleeding because of it.I am afraid of a present absent from his identity is indifferent to what will happen to me to run away and only ..Damn to escape from things we remember and it is difficult for us to forget them, and even to exhaust ourselves with memory .. Why do not we dig and spend it ??We finish it and blow it out of our lives and never remember it.Why do we connect our present with the suffering of the past ??Why bury ourselves in the shell of memories and difficult to get out of it ??To this degree our souls are weak ?!Or are we tortured to torture ourselves and kill every feeling we may resort to in the case of despair within us who comes without warning ..I fear that this abyss is the only solution to get rid of those pains of ours ... But despite all this feeling, escape is not the solution ..The solution is to overcome them and do not give them bigger than their size, what I took in the past days and moments of happiness is enough !!!Suffice it to be tormented all the time by mistakes we have signed to the goodness of us ..It is enough to sacrifice an entire age ... We live once and the day that goes on and we do not live as we wanted, we may regret it a lot and it is too late ...I have been tired of thinking but I have finally made the decision ... I will review my calculations again and will not surrender to my grief .... I will face my father and get rid of them forever and I will live as I wish ..I will never fear ... even if I have already stood on the edge of the abyss.

In my waiting for you

In my waiting for you I get bored, feeling a fire in my ribs has which disappeared from people's eyes, So I put my hand on my cheek when the seconds I spent in separating seems a lifetime, I start to count the second one by one in your absence... but you did not come...  honesty, sometimes I wish I didn't fall in love with you.

Wanna know if you're upset or if someone else had your heart out of desperation I had to think that your absenteeism will last forever, thought I might have done to you something wrong and I found.... O I found none!

I really sometimes I wished then, I'd never fell in love.... side by side the fire's found a home in me and I get lost running after them thoughts, any breath I think might be yours, any whisper I guess it's your word beneath my mind, Been through all of this nights and days they'd seen me then, and thought I was nuts..

You promise with years and days ....And throw your alibis and nonsense...

And .. and Within a handshake, you're almost gone, or you'll swear your heart that you forgot about me and my love.

Before my eyes saw you

O, god her eyes returned me to the days that had gone by, they taught me to regret the past and its wounds, that which I experienced before my eyes saw you

What is the wasted life to me?

 You are my life whose morning began with your light... How much of my life before you has passed and gone by,

My darling, how much of my life has gone, My heart never experienced one bit of joy before you and had never tasted in this world anything but the flavor of injury

I've now just begun to love my life

I've now begun to fear for the passing of my lifetime.. every joy that I longed for before you was fantasy

My heart and mind meet find it in the light of your eyes, O.. life of my heart, o.. you who is more precious than my life... Why didn't I meet your love, my darling, sooner..!!!

The sweet nights and the desire and the love for so long my heart carried them for you to taste love with you, From the feeling of my heart whose desire extended to your feeling.... Give me your eyes, to reflect my eyes in your world, give me your hands to touch calms my hands, O... my darling come on forget about that which has passed us, just tell me where i can find you .. O,

O you who is more precious than my days

O you who is sweeter than my dreams

Take me to your longing take me, pull me away from the universe... Far, far away, just you and I,

From the love that awakens our days.. didn't you feel it..

From the desire than sleeps our nights.. didn't it touches our inner being.

I've reconciled time my days with you,I've reconciled time with you, I forgot my pains with you.... And I forgot with you my woes

Your eyes called me to the days that have passed, They taught me to regret the past and its wounds..That which I experienced before my eyes saw you

What is the wasted life to me..!!!

the obstinacy of your heart

We both aggrieved love with our hands, although we hurt it and injuried it, until it becomes in narrow and very thin road,
none of us wanted to be better than the other nor sacrifice for the other and so love was lost.. betweem the obstinacy of your heart and the obstinacy of my heart, 
then true love was vanishing, until it seems lost... and now neither i can forget your love nor did you.

until I meet you

All I want is to fall on you like rain upon a wildflower, I bend down and kiss your petals wetly falling all over you... Letting your pistil slip into my mouth, sucking off your honey,
Almost plucking you but not going so far.
Just pulling you so that you can feel your roots leaving the ground... To let you almost taste.. Our world in the sky, so afterwards you can go down... Believing... The words on my lips, When I fall on my knees for you... A flower in the rain with a man bow to love.

ask not a professional

Slowly, tenderly, sweetly...  Kiss me
Kiss me on the lips... Slowly down... Down to my finger tips
Kiss my body inch by inch, tenderly till it tickles and starts to flinch
Kiss me in the left and right ear, and please sweetly whisper your words of passionate care
Kiss me by the neck, with those little kisses called pecks
Kiss me hungrily in the mouth, let your soul hear my groaning delicious shouts
Kiss me below and yonder... O, till my juices begin to ponder, and turn on fire with our desires.
Kiss me once, twice, thrice...Oooo! These kisses are very nice, now i believe that kissing is an art, one most master and for sure slowly is better than faster. And ask not a professional for a kiss for it will be empty without bless. 

"dedicated to my wife in distance"

Open door

Let me open a secret door for you.. In this life you will meet some kinds of humans, some is always full of light, some find them pleasure in fight, some pretending smartness while they got an empty mind.
However they live a long or short life, for noble purpose,  for themselves or live it for others, covering them true coins with good thinking, hidden them fears under them short Or long sighted and always tumble or stumble.!!!
in this life you will find that, Some are great by birth, others are great by thoughts, or even by deeds,
some are really great, and they have the vission, they have the strength and will which flows from true love, they may always worries, but they always keeps dishonesty distance a mile away from their life.
some has ways open, and some others have to open them on own, Wander where life takes, some take life where they want.. The point is, in time each One of us will get whatever he deserves.

On the autumn fall

In the smell of the fallen leaves, when Sun rays break through the clouds, when the desert  waiting patiently to that first rain drops.. When natural taking the hand of clarity and get everything ready for rebirth, 
 It's our autumn, 
When I look at your hair, dancing in the air, when you touch the trees... Bowing, revealing to you that priceless last breeze, when we look all and all around, up in the sky and down on the ground.. And we see nothing but a fallen lovers beneath a fallen leaves.

Wisdom

الحكم هي أروع ما قد تنتجه الأفكار، وأجمل ما كتبته اليد، والعقول تعطي الوعي لمحتاجه، وتنبت بذرة في صحراء قاحلة، تُهدي صواباً لتنير حياتنا، الحكم هي جمل قصيرة فيها عبر وفيرة، وهي خلاصة تجارب الشّخص وخبراته، وهبة للمؤمن أينما وجدها يجب أن يلتقطها، ومن تلك الحكم التي تغذي الروح والعقول ما لم اتذكره دوما من حديث عفا عنه الزمان..... 

 . ان قدرت على عدوك، فاجعل العفو عنه شكراً لقدرتك عليه.

love me..

If you must love me.... Love me not for the sorrow in my eyes, love me not even for my smile,  For if I forget to smile... So will your love vanish in a blink of an eye.
Love me for Love.
Love me not for my body, not for how I touchs you, love me for the sake of Love
Not for how I choose to speak my words.. Or how I inked its one by one,
Love me for Love... For everything else fades away

let the silence take you to the center of my mind

When goblins creep... when the ghouls dont sleep... when the Witches fly... when the black Cats cry.
When Nightmares start... when words get dart... when my thoughts run wild... when I'm longing like a child,
I know .. I miss a beat of my heart, and I completely lost the mind.

Nothing's impossible

Did you actually regret what you said ?
or was that just a lie to soothe the mind .!
You knocked down the walls behind which truth hid.
did you really think it would be funny, so where is the point one should find.
to make someone a joke for them to laugh at.!!!
is it too much to hope that he will bow down the hat
Nothing's impossible, that's what we've been told.
don't believe whoever said that, you could be left in the cold.

pool of blood.

It is dying, and some of us still crying
To all innocence heart, it was not smart
We took its life, with greedy knife
not only did it hurt Her or Him, for it made our life dim,
We loved it so, from our miserable childhood until we grow
to peaceful life we owe, but we need to make it glow. 
Hand in hand together we can go against the flow. 
With peace walk your steps, and to love only you can bow.

Together to erase students illiterate

And if this year will be our year, then it's time to finally see clear... don't limited life by your fears for what we wont try will never happen, 
I met you with a heart has frozen even love couldn't melt it away when hate grows like flowers, you met me broken, a shadow reflect in thousand peaces of an old mirror, hunting dreams wasn't ever mine.. now I see us as a fallen victims are making love in the mist, sorrows intertwining becoming one, laughter along with the banshees scream,
we creating the melody of a blissful dream, staring into the deep blue seas of anxiety... the notoriety of this beautiful society
When lust becomes adoration of ones soul, the perfect warmth on the coldest winter night,  And if the diamond being birthed by pressurized coal then together in the darkness we'll truly find light in each other soul,

before it's too late.

You don't have to regret after leading the blind to war, for they like lambs they will follow; and at some point you realize they're fighting for the wrong side, too late will they see their folly and river of tears shall not save them
By their own choice they will be branded
And in their blindness they will walk through a valley of darkness yearning for a day that never comes.. yet.
But maybe they're not so much blind as naive
Maybe all they ever needed to do was open their eyes, So, will you let me open my eyes before it's too late.

Hope of my life 002

You're the hope of my life, A precious Love that never ends
You're the best song that my heart heard and that could never be forgotten, take all my love way.. but today but today let me live... Keep me by your side, in your heart's lap!... Let me dream.. For I hope the time never wakes me up..
My hope.. My life... My eyes
You're more precious.. more precious than me to me
You're the lover of yesterday and the lover of today
You're a lover for tomorrow.. and for the end of times
My lover... Talk to me and tell me
What dream could possibly be missing when I'm lying in your arms
I never tasted love like you love
I never loved, the love of my life, but for you i did.. I've met my dreams, I've met the world.. I've met love
From the first time I met you.. I gave you my heart.. you're the life of my heart
I've never dreamed of more than this happiness,
I don't ask more than what I'm in after this joy with you my love.. If I lost my life.. I don't regret it
It's enough for me to wake to your smile singing, I hear it as a song telling me love that doesn't end, keep me by your side, in your heart and let me dream.. for I hope the time never wakes me up until I'll be by your side.
You're the one whose love filled all the world with love, whose presence awakened my life time and my heart, when you're with me, it's hard for me to blink.. Even for seconds, It's hard on me if your beauty or your sweetness disappears even a bit, O
I miss you so much..
I would like to call you by a word that was never told before, A word worth all this love.. A word to show my longings and passion... A word like you.. but where can I find you...!
There wasn't anyone born like you.. Keep me by your side, in your heart and let me dream..
My love, no matter how long my life would be with you, It'll always still few.. the joy and tenderness that's in your love is enough for more than many long generations
Your love filled my heart and my thoughts, lightens my night and making my life longer... It grows, by your preciousness, it always grows and it's always new.. by its sweetness, always new
You made me live the love, with you as it's a thousand love, with each look at you, I love you all over again

I loved in your eyes all the world even my enemies and those who envy me, all of the people seem nice to me as long as my eyes see the world with you by my side,
I fall asleep and wake on you lips singing... I hear it as a song.. i hear it as a song
Telling me love that doesn't end
Keep me by your side, in your heart ... Let me dream.. for I hope the time never wakes me up.. never wakes me up..

What if...!

What if given a chance to forget the past ?
Will taking it makes me happy..!!
Perhaps it would be a great thing at last, but I'd rather keep you in my memory eternally.
What if I could turn back time, would I choose to still wants to meet you?
Perhaps life would be in a different rhyme, but I'd prefer to still be your 'everything'
What if I can control everything, will life be much easier ?
It would be easy to get rid of this feeling, but I would still choose to love you, sincere.

birthday meeting

Keep contact... With the real, and awake from your sleep and recollect What we have lost.
Be honest and pure
In words
In actions
In means.
There's no time left .. Move on, or ask me to give up on you.

be patient

Patience is a virtue, or at least that’s what I’ve heard, but for the one waiting it sounds so absurd.
We need a distraction from what we’re waiting for, something that will end the torture of thinking about what’s in store.
We wait for so many things in our life suffering to end... An end to our strife.
We wait for something special something better to come along,
We wait in abundance and hope nothing goes wrong.
But for those who are patient the rewards are all worthwhile, they get what they waited for,
And receive it with style.
For those who get frustrated, Who kick and make a fuss,
For them the rewards mean less the things for which they lust.
No longer mean as much... Nor hold the same joy,
We’ve got to practice patience,... Life isn’t just a toy.

two days one night

Have you ever thought of a night so long... where you don't wake up and your dreams go on; where you don't feel the pain from the day before, and you can just lie happily there on the floor;
The long night goes on, and you realize and you miss, all the happiness before, the smiles and the longing for a gentle kiss; and the one that you love, your true heart's desire... Is the reason your alive and you have not died prior.
And you were trying so hard, you were trying to disappear, then you hear the words 'I love you' get whispered in your ear...
So you decide to stay awake, just a little bit longer, instead of falling asleep, going deep, down under;
 :
And in a blink of an eye it's dawn calling you, so you open your eyes and sit up in your bed, listen but no good morning has been said; roll off and to the ground then stand up straight, you look in the mirror, 'is there any new fate? '; dress yourself on how you feel for the day, bright if happy, if you're sad maybe gray;
Skip the first meal 'cuz today you can't eat, feel like you want to be light on your feet;
Specially when you feel not good enough; wonder if this day could get much longer, through out it you thought you would get stronger; you are now home, as tired as can be, wondering...... i'm tired i need to..s l e e p

When you ask

When you asked me to change my hair and my style, to change how I look and my smile... the hat to suit the fad, the clothing that I had... my routine, my character and changed my friends, the way the story ends
When you asked me to change my mind, my direction.. and how I viewed my reflection, the goals and sights I’d see and everything that made me me
I changed right back to how I began... Exactly the same but a completely changed man..

Wait me no matter what..!

Do you really think that all your knowledge can cover the truth with a beautiful lies... in a world full of clones developed in the wrong ways.
We may sink deeper into hopelessness, Maybe people still threatened us by sickness, yet i see our life's system failed to proceed.
Physical and financial seduction are an old tricks to make people with greed
Do you really think that I wants to be an enlightenment, Or I want to knows what anyone think,
Do you really think that I want to fly as a bird or breathe under water as a fish, O, or even want to talk about moral in a book to people still breathe but... lost the way of life..
Do you really think you know me...! excuse me.. for I'm an ordinary person who walk in a simple humble way, who are not selfish, doing everything without carelessness, just speak with sincerity and not fake like some and I don't want to be anything else.


The fool'

nothing is random ..

Your heart is on fire.. Burning through your mask, Scorching the walls around your heart... Melting the glass turning the ice to water... Washing away your pain
Soaking your fear with your courage..  Fight against the lies you were told ... whispering of something called 'love' .. And i begin to believe when i became old,
If only you're in my sight, If only you could hear my screams at night.. Alas, Now the tears roll down the eye, tell the woman in your mirror...  love doesn't a big lie, Tell  her someday there'll be sunshine, which seems so dim through the cloud of lies, someday I'll fold all life burdens in the hand of an angel ... and someday I'll float into the horizon of his skies.

Have you..!!

Have you ever been beyond repair that blank look in the mirror as you stare, has each day been an effort to remain and have you looked at some in distain as you struggled through the long day....would you count each one away and when the evening came... Did you thank god as you tried to explain to yourself the worth of it all as you worked to make it good to recall.

truth

Nothing is past; nothing is lost. One brief moment and all will be as it was before only better, infinitely happier and forever we will all be one together but let the truth lead the way; for the safety of the world,

lover last dance,

Throughout my life I've feared love, And the topic of love, And the opression of love to all those who possess it for I know stories filled with sighs, tears and groans and lovers falling in love and never turning back.
Throughout my life I've said no to desire and nights of desire as well as no to tormenting my heart
Then...  I met you and found that you changed my whole life, I don't know how I loved you I don't know how, my life changed from a whisper of love I found myself loving and falling in love, night and day at its mercy... Years of my life passed and for years I often saw lovers
Who complain to themselves. And those who cry in agony, The people of love are truly unfortunate
Oh how many times love called my heart and my heart did not answer back
Oh how many times desire tried to trick me and I said 'be gone oh torment'
Oh how many eyes tried to attract my attention but never succeed except for you eyes
Those alone took me and commanded me to love you they commanded me to love... I found myself loving and falling in love night and day at its mercy

You all who love wrong saying that it was torment and I dunno what
Shame on you and the ones you love... As for love, I give my soul to it, There is nothing in the world that could ever, ever be more wonderful than love.. We tire, we suffer, we complain about it, but we do love,
The heart and its sighs are incredible in reunion and separation and the candles of desire, when they light, a night of longing, the world and its beauty are so incredible in the eyes of lovers and when love took me, .. I found myself loving and falling in love night and day at its mercy
You filled my life with love So I give you my life my soul, my heart, my mind and my everything are yours
Your voice, your glance, your whisper are incredible... Something that made the world flowers and candles for me forever
My God knows how great your love is my darling... And my happiness with you my darling, my darling, oh my God
Not a tear nor a sigh has hurt my heart
I say nothing in your love but oh my God, my darling, my God your love is great
From so much love, I found myself loving and falling in love night at day at its mercy.

Yesterday

Yesterday is lost .. Yet.. Between our hands still today and if today will collect his papers and leave us .. We always have tomorrow .. Do not grieve yesterday, he will not return and do not regret today .. He is gone too, just dream of a bright sun in a beautiful tomorrow If I can't love you, if i failed to be the man you hope... Then try to find someone who pleases you.. But.. If you do not find someone planting a rose in your days, do not ask those who planted in your heart an arrow... I forgive you, and I'll always love you.

the quality

Man's words fold his mind, when abbreviation in speech is the best quality to find,
Do not look at me as the leaves that change its color .. Don't read my words as a faded letters .. For it's inked with pain and brutality .. For you will discover that these lines is not the most beautiful words I wrote .. And these papers is not the last ... These lines were not just beautiful words passing by.. But they are innocent feelings of heart lived them letter by letter .. And the pulse of a human carried a dream .. And burned with fire to make it come true .. My dear,
Virtue and wealth both remaining weigh together, in the balance we can't rise one of them without falling the other.
I Pay my whole life for a sense of truth and heart contains my endless love .. But I do not pay a moment of my life for a lover runaway .. Or abandoned my heart for no reason.

Peace

Sad as the last Autumn leaves, when it starts whispering to all the garden tree's, in a darkness night when the summer was dying,
We lost all the flowers, but deep inside... our roots still have the power, Our hope of warning beam seems to be done, in this life peace isn't real it's just feel of fun, like the darkness listened for the sun,  clear as morning's gold, it screams with Melody unfold.
We may fall into the ground and the wind is scattering us here and there, denying our existence, but as long as there is a root there is a hope and as quiet as night there is a voice of light..  As long as there is hope there is reason to go on... Hope speaks but it's often a 'whisper', so, we must listen or be drown out by the longings that must remain dreams..

Love isn't a game..  Go search for a toy away from here.. What you broke is beyond repair,

hope nothing for tomorrow's

Let the night of longing and its brilliant sky, its shining stars, its moon keeping awake all night.. ... All of them together are witnessing to this madness love, You and I, my sweetheart, my life... Let us live in the eyes of the night, let us go beyond our existence.. Let our desires prevent the sun from rising.. Don't tell me "life" what is the meaning behind.. For it's one night talking to your eyes, touching your senses, holding that first beam of dawn in your heart.. Forget about yesterday's hope nothing for tomorrow's ..  Living a life in a blink of an eye on you.. How one's can describe before and after love what's looks like.. With a blink of an eye this desert life becomes garden, cloud become god magnificent  message, even in the heart of loneliness nights become melody to fold my wings between the stars silently.

absence..

Waiting for you caused... Fire to start in my heart so I had to put... My Palm-on-Cheek while counting
Second by second your absence, and you never came
I really wished then I'd never fell in love
Wanna know if you're upset.. Or if someone else had your heart.. Out of desperation I had to think.. Your absenteeism will last forever.. Thought I might've done
You something wrong and I found none!
I really wished then I'd never fell in love side by side the fire's found a home in me
And I get lost running after them thoughts
Any breath I think might be yours
Any whisper I guess it's your word
Been through all of this nights and days
They'd seen me then, and thought I was nuts
I really wished then I'd never fell in love
You promise with years and days
And throw your alibis and nonsense
Within a handshake, you're almost gone!
Or you'll swear your heart that you forgot about me
I really wished then I'd never fell in love.

Sleepless nights

Thoughts dread in my head, disgrace the purity of dreams ahead ...
Fake smiles, words so vile, beautiful eyes, arrogant lies, pain and despair, life's not fair,
Love on it's way to lost, for even emotions now cost, Complex mind, nothing to find, Eyes that burn, now it's my turn.. turn to cry, I'll make you want to die, Flowing blood and dripping tears, I'm tired of hiding behind this mirrors of fears. 
Pointless conversation, aggravation, Heart, mind, shadows in mirrors, stairs... who cares,
Stupid fights and sleepless nights
O, Sea.. see, Empty me.!