Sad story

She thought he was a knight coming from the ages of ignorance, he thought she was a geek coming from the clan of deception, and they were both wrong... losing the melody of them precious song, dear feelings shed, pain hurt the body with shame in them head, craving for mercy... crying in bed,  
If life wasn't a sad story, why they got birth crying, and after so long journey they just dying,

She thought he was a knight coming from era of loyalty, he thought she was princess of modesty coming from royal love story, and they were both right... play away the melody of them precious song, dear feelings shed, longing hurt the body before even touched the head, craving for mercy... willingly in bed,  
If life is a love story, how we will share it before get dying,

See it's up to you, life is just the choices we take through the road, no matter if we were silent or shouting so loud, it's not craving for career, or jumping high barrier.. it was, is and will always be just love, because where there is love, life exist.. she isn't perfect, he also isn't perfect yet true love is two imperfect persons refuse to giving up on each others. 

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Slaughters me till the bones

When the morning beam, gone.. letting me share the endless nights with hopeless dream, to come on,
When shall this silent of sense be cast, this dust of thoughts be laid at last, 
When the man of flesh and soul be slain, and the man of bones remain 
When this heart starts talk, these lungs painfully shout, asking me what is this humming brain think about, 
When we're proud and in power, hopping not for a lifetime.. just for togetherness even for little hour, we will tenderly seed the birth.. maybe not forever but at least it should last as long as earth.
When i send my angels into the west, to know where, when and even how my soul can't get rest
When I'll lie down in that cold... bed of dust; do you can bring our eternal seed to light, only then both bear we must, for all the morning will be the same as night,
When we flesh and soul still strong, why shall we suffer as a slaves so long, and before the fire of our sense decay, why can't we just blow the dust and clean it away.
When inside this beating heart you live alone, why you slaughters me till the bones.

Love me in silence

Maybe your true identity is what you fear, may be also it's beyond compare,
Maybe I told you the truth you denied to accept and refused to pare,
but still as you are think, still i feels, commitment and for Athens journey I'm getting prepare,
and while I truly love you, hurting me deeply becomes beyond repair.
Blind not in the eyes, it's those who can't see with them heart,
Distance my separates us, but you know, we aren't apart.
For you love me in silence, and i do see this as an art,

Shoo.. forget you

Shoo.. forget you, abandon you, neglect your feelings... we are a thousand miles away from those words. It is impossible for my heart to lean and love another one in this earth or another.
I'm sleepless, suffering from distance, 
I never asked you to show your love, to let me know in you care,
I'm not even willing to let you be fair,
I may forget your sins towards me, I may forget how you humiliating my dignity, but to forget you.. No I'm sorry I can't
Our love story has it's unforgettable unique memories, It's the days while i truly felt with my heart beats, It's the days which contain dreams came true and dreams still awaiting to come true.
My life before you appeared you owned a long ago, even the rest of my life still waiting your existence to be yours.
years passed as seconds in our love story, with all it's ups and downs,  all the sweet passions were visible even in our adversaries.
And you say, I will forget you, How .. while even we are sad, even we are in distance I love you more than yesterday.

Yes.. May be I'm sad, mad... may be I failed to be everything you hopped for, but in our story, 

separation, abandon, or even forget about each other's... not an options,

Theater

Life is a big theater, there are the actors, compars and directors...  Assistants and even producers.
Everyone needs a spirit of creativity, Everyone works to achieve a goal... But what makes successful work are the spirit of teamwork and a worthwhile story.
If you occupy one of these roles with no doubt you are creative .. If not .. don't regret, bring a chair and come sit next to me and let us enjoy the show, for only us whom paid for the tickets.

The time to honor yourselves ends soon

To family,
He who said "Love is like war" wasn't know what love is, for history teaches me that in any ordinary life parents die and their sons bury them but in war parents live to bury their children, whichever war it was.

To readers,
If you want quick happiness... avenge,
If you want endless happiness... you must learn to forgive.

To you,
Between the calmness of the night and the tranquility of the soul I find the bliss of life .. And by your virtue I learned that in silence also there is a life ... And between calmness, tranquility and silence there are endless details will not be realized by anyone else but us.

Cruelty does not make men. As humiliation does not make heroes

it is a lesson that everyone should learn, must be given before an expected return.
it is something that isn't given for free, it is about us and never about me
it is the basis on which relationships are founded, it is the anchor that keeps a person well grounded, it builds the character and defines who we are, sets the standard and raises us from afar... respect, respect
Everyone expects respect no matter who they are,
The only way to gain it is to start treating everyone not as part of our extended family but as we  expect them to respect us, no matter what color or creed, beliefs or race they are for only then you will start to get the respect you so dearly crave.

Only empty pots have high resonance.

All other lovers being estranged or dead, and we still bright
speech after long silence; is the only way to be right...
We loved each other or we were just ignorant.

Without you..

I've forgotten sleep and its dreams, nights and its stars lights.... Far from you my life is torture,  Don't go far from me and I have nothing but teardrops in my heart.

With myself I live far from you, Desire conquered me, the sleepless nights melted me, And no matter how much the desire keeps me up, and no matter how much the separation confuses me, no fire of love will change me nor will the days make me far... From you

Now no sleep nor tears in my eyes for the separation is over for me, for between desire and desperation, and between fear and its illusions.... I worry for you and I'm afraid you'll forget me, And the desire for you will forever awake me.

Remember me in a beautiful moment.... We lived in it for love, May that words remind you of me,

Take my years,Take all of them, Except for the seconds in which I see real you or learn me how I hide it... how I say it to make you understand.

I was longing for you... When there was only two steps between us, Look, look how it is now, Where am I my darling and where are you

What to do ?

Don't tell me what to do

You are the hope of my life, Why do you deprive me of it

My eyes were making me jealous of my love, and now they cry for you because of my defeat... When you are the light of my eye, o.. the soul of my heart, where are you..!

Please write a poem on who you are..?

An online friend requested from afar
What? I’m worthless, nothing was my thought... but that wasn’t the answer that he sought... After being so nicely asked and I couldn’t resist, so I sat down to make a truthful idea list.
Who is anyone..? where is anyone..? That’s the key I thought, after brainstorming I really felt distraught... Perhaps I should start ... age, sex, location...?
But it doesn’t describe you or clear frustration, these things won’t touch the surface of anyone, for the real inner me now that would be gone
Is it your heart..? My brain..? How I think..? How you think..?
Maybe the fact sometimes I feel life’s down the sink..?
Or maybe our feelings what makes us happy or sad?
And those irritating things that make me so mad ?
Is it loving art, music and reading a book with a good song, or maybe that I often get things so very wrong.
Perhaps that I care far too easily..?
Does work is a great excuse to hide, avoiding things crashing in with the tide
Perhaps it's the reason I like black and white, or I only search for something unique and very bright, maybe its that my senses often cry at hearing sad song, and get lumps in my throat is that wrong ?
Maybe its whatever I do never seems enough, to make people contented is continually tough.
On a game said I search truth, honor in mankind, I hoped but o... so rare these days I find.
Yes I know I’m gullible and often don’t see, those that not friendly good interest in me, Maybe it’s that I cringe when I turn on the news, for the hurt, badness injustice in the world does me bruise.
I know, it’s that I believe there’s good in everyone, however much they behave hurt me I forgive- is that wrong?
I believe in good and truth eventually being shown, Even if for ages it was carefully hidden not known,
Maybe that’s I’m just a dreamer of impossible things, of unspoilt nature mountains, woodlands and streams
But its my heart and soul that I see, they shape my thought actions and me
And I write what comes from my head, I guess show my feelings and stuff I dread
My inner thoughts I guess must come through, They all express my feelings putting you in view.

Just let me go..

Hope's perfect mirror with your pretending will broken,
Shadows of true things you still unspoken,
Why, when our sun shines clearest,
Why, when our hopes seen nearest,
Why, when our life feels dearest,
From my sorrows gleaning, thoughts of the words have deep meaning,.. and before we bleeding, let us rejoice while leaning.

Hope's perfect mirror with your pretending will broken,Shadows of true things you still unspoken, Why, when our sun shines clearest, Why, when our hopes seen nearest, Why, when our life feels dearest,

From my sorrows gleaning, thoughts of the words have deep meaning,.. and before we bleeding, let us rejoice while leaning.

True love never needs words,

You don't help me to be patient with promises, tenderly speech and pledges
I've been patient so long with this fire, torment and degradation, What a mistake and I can't make it again..  even if there are desires and longing for you, nevertheless, patience has its limits, my darling
Love kept me patience a long time and I concealed a lot in my heart, I was satisfied despite your injustice however all of this had an influence
and the closeness was behind me
And in silence I had a lot of mercy
And when you met me I had lost all patience loving you
And still I live with my hope even if cost me a lot of years in your love
You don't give me patience that's it I'm sick of it
Showing me you're my salvation when I sacrifice no matter how cruel you are
There's no passion in this world that could live like this on illusions for true love never needs words,

In love and living

My destiny, my day and nights of desire... From the flame of longing in your eyes you ignite my tenderness, what is this poetry you have in your eyes that made the most beautiful words jealous, what is the scent of this perfume of your hands
From the spring in your lips
From the nights in your eyes
From the flames in your cheeks
From the tenderness in your hand
My soul got lost on this journey and I was lost with it, protect me from the sands of time, protect me, and hide me far from all the prying eyes.
So long nights that pass killing my hopes and leaving me ashes asking the I.. What's in it if she forgets to love me..?
My fear is that she won't take it nor will she leave me
My fear is that this great happiness will be taken from me
My fears is losing you when the I.. will be me.
all the love I loved was yours, my darling tell the world with me, This life is nothing but love.

Love

Mysterious to everyone
unnamed person
a noble emotion pure with sense,
ever wanting this to happen
beg. to end as number one
request with all of you
desire to feel, touch, unimaginable
let go,
not erased by mind... for it'll always remains blind
sensational touch
with one love... we need to do only on thing
do.... everything on earth with you.

How to be patient in love, O

You don't help me to be patient with promises, and candy-coated speech and pledges, I've been patient so long with this fire inside, torment and degradation.
What a mistake...!  and I won't make it again.
And even if there is desires and longing for you, nevertheless, patience has its limits, my darling
Love kept me patience a long time and I concealed a lot in my heart, and I was satisfied despite your injustice however all of this had an influence,
And the closeness was behind me, And in far-ness I had a lot of mercy
And when I'll met you.. I'll lose all patience in loving you, so for now I live with my hope, Even if cost me a lot of years in your love
You don't give me patience that's it I'm sick of it, Showing me you're my salvation when I sacrifice no matter how cruel you are
There's no passion in this world that could live like this on illusions
True love never needs words it needs solutions,

A heart of diamonds

You confused my heart with you, and I am hiding and concealing my emotions, Tell me what should I do with you or what should I do with my heart, I want to complain to you from the fire of your love, I want to tell you about what I kept in my heart, what is keeping me sleepless at night, what is making my feelings cry and to describe to you the exhaustion of my soul, but my self-pride, my dignity prevents me,

O.. one look in my eye, and you'll see what is written in it... This glance of desire and longing and this tear I hide, and this dream between my eyelids stays with me the whole night, it kept me awake between thoughts and sorrows
And its shadow passed me inside my eye,
And between my desire and my deprivation,
And my confusion with my repression,

O.. how many nights I've spent with my dream, I give my soul patience with a word you said to me one day, spent the night thinking of what has happened to you and what has happened to me,
And I said he has neither experienced confusion upon when I greet him nor has he experienced desire to my eye, he will speak, and then I comes back and forgive you again and again and long for you to be with me,

I fought you between my soul and made good with you and fought you again and I say after my soul takes pity on me... It obeys me to increase my deprivation and I will remain loving you no matter what I say, or what has confused my thoughts,
Your heart does not indicate a hidden love and when you heart deprives me and shows my eye your love... I am concerned for what is preoccupying you and my soul hears your call.

the death of our life

Too much of good things may be bad, the sooner it spreads happiness the near it will turn us into sad. 
We may got our share of necessary losses, but we should go on with pride, dignity and never be mad. 
For all our ups and downs were but distinguishing between who will be there and who can't found.
yet always remember that, life is what once was held onto light, through misty despair it may leave our sight,
I've a heart protect you, called you my life, but I have a question do simple yet Sharp as a knife ...
are we living life of death, or the death of our life . ..?
are they pretend to help you watching our lives decay,  or you just waiting our "togetherness" last day. 
which of these questions holds the truth...!
which of our feelings need more proves..!

good morning

Maybe I failed to show you how much I love you, but be sure I'll prove that sincerity still excited.. And still alive.

bitterness

If you really love someone . You will stand face to face against the wind. You neither leave his heart wounded nor in the middle of the fire thow it away.
If your heart was still innocent... How to judge by injustice on innocent. And leave his heart lonely, sinking, wrestling waves all alone.
If you really love by all your heart ..  you should knew how to protect your love, you do not hesitate even for a second to dwell among his embrace and hug, not in a minute you go and forget about him without any excuses.
If you love someone, you wouldn't fool him, or let him suffer from your absence, and waiting you with tears to know your way every night..  Every day
Never bore him so much until it becomes over his will... Neverlethim regrets for fidelity wasn't sin,
If you love someone , you should knew its feeling need two together to explain,  not a feeling full of bitterness
If you love someone . You should sacrifice, break down any rules, don't be the cause of his wounds, don't hurt him deeply in his emotions... And when he was weak, he was waiting for a moment of merciful.  he was hoping for honesty heart which stood with him... Side by side before he gets collapse...

Yesterday

Yesterday I said goodbye to my last tears, I Shied it overcame all the places and memories that brought us together,
And returned alone grabbing through this darkness roads, Where she went. Searching even for her as a friend wondering to where all swept away with love,
Then again another new tear flow over them all,  When about her heart..  My heart asked me,  where it vanished... Even the perfume she was used to let it touch her skin..  I smell it..  I smell it from afar. 
You awoke my wounds which were quenched. You thought it was dead, how you think that wounds can be dead,
Now I lost picture of the truth. Of my old pictures, it was remain antics .. Then you Killed it by silence.

Reads history

Whoever reads history, despair will never enter his heart, and he will see that life is nothing but days God deliberates it between people.
The rich become poor, the poor turn rich, and he who yesterday's strong may be the weaker today,
Even yesterday's rulers are homeless today, Judges are accused, and he who has the power are defeated sometimes somewhere somehow.
The astronomy keep routing and life do not stand and keep moving, even accidents do not stop running ..and people exchange chairs,
Neither sorrow nor joy lasts forever except the pain of your true love, will always bleed in this forbidden place called heart.. So be sure before you fall in love, for at this very moment you give someone else the permission to hurt you eternally.

The life you've taken.

Tell me, what I should do and still I didn't do it. What I missed to be the man who can fit,
My life you have taken, my heat you have gotten... All love words had written, words I new its meaning and even the words meanings I've forgotten. 
Tell me, what I should do and still I didn't do it, what I missed to be that man . . .  before I'll leave this earth and waiting you in the other side with a tear telling you "I'm still waiting for you see how fool you were. ..!"

I'll leave you.

Clinging to the tone of deprivation and kept complaining, letting subject goes astray, neither the sweetness you saw helped you nor the tenderness you feel everyday, 
and I know there's nothing will intercede to my heart saving it from that sway,
Am I hurting you, O..  be honest for you have the ability to hurt a country... 
I'll leave you for there is nothing left you can do but killing me, 
I'll leave you and abandon you forever for you think you bought me, 
I'll leave you for the "I" in me shout, and the "you" with hopeless doubt, will never be "we".

You failed

When you lose your love to someone in the mist, it is the "I" who is lost, and then you fell like it is both who are you need the most... And nothing is ever as the same as you want it to be.
We live in a very ordinary world, can't you just see, any extraordinary pain mixed with the small routines, our loss seems huge and yet nothing can be pinned down or fully explained, for you are afraid if you found the perfect love, it would scald your hands,
You push and push to lose your love for him and then it is him who is lost... You tried not to hurt and yet,, everything you touched in his fragile world became a wound, then you tried to mend what cannot be mended, you tried, neither by your vanity nor tenderly, to rescue what cannot be rescued.
My darling...  You failed, for nothing is ever as perfect as you want it to be.

good night

And I was light a candle into your night before it getting dark
For one only has one life and it's time to make our own mark.
So... Please pray for hope and be strong, and if in your lips I needs to believe , I wish that nothing tonight will go wrong. goodnight, google fan's

Manhood

Put these words in your mind and feel them with your heart. femininity isn't to show men much attractions or the beauty of your body or even how smart you are... For If this was the criterion for evaluation, then bars and brothels would be the first targets of men to search for what they need, femininity standard in my life dictionary is to be chastity, inhibition, abashment
From the other hand, real men not whom Stringy, Fanatic opinion, Moody. And not of course the drinkers. Manhood is literature in treatment others.

Say goodbye... (F.Y.I)

Right now I just want to come to terms, search for hope, and pray for pleases you through words.
Dreamland is for lost souls, and not for tending, I am still here hoping and your attitude still need to amending.
No brash word or song will say goodbye... It is my fight for hope it is not about your lie.
Please don't close your eyes tonight.. I see you are wishing to reverse that fight.
One doesn't know the way life turns out and It is good that life goes so round about.
I feel no regrets to be part of these five years... because tomorrow ... may have more fears
I might have only one moment left in this earth to stay, But my force will never leave... today.

Deception,

No one can be ever be completely good or bad, Live makes us flit between happy or sad.
No one is just clever we can all be fools, Whatever happens we are all life’s tools.
Some our words they manipulate and us vexed, Repeat our words completely out of context.
False images are formed masquerading as truth, This deception has been practiced by most since youth
But the truth will always win as it reveals itself gently,, The falsehoods appear and shrivel away sometimes slowly, So try stay true adapt as life’s makes us ebb and flow, Throughout our real true soul will truly show
However elaborate the lies, while the plain truth they refuse to accept, One day they have to face it and finally their lies will be met,

Someday

Somewhere on this earth there's a place waiting for us willingly.
Someday we may discover our real destiny
Somewhere beneath the hill, a hope hidden carefully
Someday you may find your heart soul lie in paradise peacefully
Somewhere we will find that offers total tranquility
Someday we will uncover true love for eternity

In your fake perfect world, i was the tool

You think I'm a fool, just like any unwanted tool, Residing at the bottom of the tool box, decaying rusting unwanted to all.
I cling to false hope of love and help them to things mend
I try all possibilities to give my best but they just fling me back beneath the rest
I gave my all to help again but to try to speak I'm the lowest of men
It proves I'm the least important tool of all,
So into the bottom of the tool box again I fall. 

You, are a member of my family.

These few weeks I reverted back to the old me, The pain I hide away so no one will again see, except in what i ink I’m fine happy I will say, I detest lying but others prefer it that way.
I try to be there just listen whatever happens to you, even I’m crashing badly somehow this I still can do, I feel weak, sick, tired, exhausted in reality, No one realizes how bad it is as they don’t care about me.
I guess I now know just badness bad luck to others I bring, So I ought to just die so I don’t hurt others with this evil thing, I hate me for spoiling things and bringing others down, So I have to self-destruct in silence and never show a frown.
I guess when I see someone is happy I should not stay, Because I will chase their happiness good fortune away, For others have more value purpose that is sadly true, They deserve to be happy and I mustn’t make them blue.
So pain, hurt, frustrations I will just file away and hide, as silently crying as I just die more and more inside,I survive only to serve my family to try let them live, to repay them for all that they have to others give.
When this is over at last I can at last go permanently away, I’m too tired now and have no other reason to on this earth stay.

Equilibrium is beautiful

Out of love, a person need to maintains a balance of feeling, for some are destructive and others giving healing... Some gave us great joy.. whereas others are sad, Can you see, they can be good or painful and bad.
As we rise joyfully high then to depths we fall, A balance of life is there for us all.
We have these two huge extremes... To appreciate the opposite to "me" it seems.
When the darkness falls we'd not fight, If we were never filled with good light
Opposites are always there and always inside we kept, for we've all experienced joy then to have wept.
So darling, when next time it seems again all is sadly tossed... And life meaning and purpose has been lost, just remember though bad, the opposites still near.. We keep trying, we must have faith.... and good sooner or later will .... appear.

Along our way

And for your morning I'm sending a gentle touch of love for kindness bears the sweetest fruit, that makes our dreams come true. 
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, guide me when I'm blind, for a good heart, good love and good friends are hard to find. 
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, a little more each day, may we both find happiness, somewhere along our way. 

Love is something from above

In the darkness as the flame flickers up high above... you make my heart melt from your candle of love. 
You give me light, when I can't see...  you take my sadness, and set it free. 
Promise me to be always there, day or night... you guide me in, with your shimmering light. 
You will be there to warm my feelings when I am cold, always around for me to hold. 
You have understanding, and show me concern, forever in my heart, your candle will burn. When the power is out, you're always there, to give me comfort, and show me care.
This may be a poem or maybe not, but the feelings are real, from your candle of love, you made me feel. How proud I am, to be at your side, now I have light, I don't have to hide.  For you my dear, you make me live, in return, I'd like my all to give.

tell me how to explain the meaning of colors to a blind human

The most true meanings of love we hear it without the accent of words.... The most beautiful vision of life we see not with eyes but through our feelings... The magic of charming music is felt in our heart with the soul ... not our ears,
We all have the same senses yet not all of us knew how to use it.
You see, you want me to run towards success because it does not have legs ... but I prefer to crawl towards the house where my love is waiting for me.
You see the poet beneath my words, when I prefer the child who drives my emotions towards you.
How beautiful it is when we write words remain by some as beautiful and seen by some as expressive and influential, and seen by others as meaningless... while there are few who know what is hiding behind its queues.

Vanity never meet dignity

Do you ever before knew that life isn't only the pleasure of vanity, for there is still this special kinds of human whom never regret for a second about them honest intention, And even for them greed-less deeds in this life , even if they found not anyone who he appreciates them as it should.
They will stay proud that them were and still remains humans carrying a heart of gold.
Yeah. It is painful for anyone to promise you to stay forever in your life, for he will not go away, but he will make you leave by his vanity actions toward you.. and then,
Only then you will discover the end of your validity in them hearts and finally you will not waste your time in inquiries when there is no place to express ... you will carry away with you the dignity still remains in your vain, got the lesson and just wake away knowing that life was only the pleasure of vanity to some people.

If forever was a lie and drain

You are a cloud came down heavily as a drizzling rain in my life, which has been suffering from a Long drastic drought, Flooded me with flashed happiness and joy.
You are the moon came down suddenly in my life, which has been covered with damn darkness, you showered me with your sluttish light and rrepelled my every stoic lethargy.
You are wind but rushed down as a seditious storm overturn my road in the psychic deep sea .. Yet guided me to the unknown ... exciting, surprising and wonderful
You come in again and again in my life as a light as a wind, as a rain
I wish you to remain in my life forever even if forever was a lie and drain

intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity

My darling when she promises me I see the world is laughing at me, And when her soul arrived, it delighted me leaving me thinking about what could happen to my life without her,
I forget all existence around. It does not occur to me as if my world had no sound
And when the mold changes... And my heart becomes in turmoil, O.. With thoughts coming into my mind the fire and puzzled by ... my soul start to weeping,
My darling ... after night comes the light, and after the clouds there are spring and flowers.
Love is like this, intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity. and from this and that no doubt love is you.

Forgive me,

I would do anything just to see you once even it was my last time, where I could hold you in my arms and look deep into your beautiful soul... And tell you how much I'm missing your presence in my life ,
One last time that I could see your beautiful smile,
One last time to feel your lips touch mine,
Its unacceptable for me to say goodbye before our combine, 
I wished this moment would come.. I prayed every night, hoping that my worst fear wouldn’t come true but as the day that we can't get closer... I know that my prayers have gone unanswered, Its hard to believe that we can't be closer soon.. you, you are,
A person that brought so much joy, intelligence and means to my life, A person that made everything seem so perfect, A person that four thousands away from my side.
I'd never thought I would fall so mad for anybody, you’re the angel that stole my heart and I hope you know that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you are for you’ll always have a place in my heart, I’ll carry you with me everywhere
and we'll never be apart.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry 
I failed to be in time as a man
I'm responsible for this situation
I can't live without you
and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.

In a world where love has no doors opened

When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind
will be driven to madness.
how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..!
Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.

Good night, shooo

Let it Rain

I gave you myself, the mine, I and me but I'm not a toy for you to play, to use, then go on your way
I'm here for your amusement, but I don't have to accept the abuse you sent
I'm a person, if you can believe, I'm for your sadness to... relieve, I've feelings too, just like you, well your supposed to
I except to be for you something to wipe your feet on but I.. am.. not here for to beat on, 
You cant steal more feelings of me anymore, I left in shadows, but I closed that door.
Maybe I'm nothing, worthless, useless or even dead, but as you said " I'm nothing then Who you are..!!"
See, I'm a person, I've a name, I'm not a toy, in a game.

For a second, close your eyes and see.

If you think when the mind took over your actions, you will grew stronger. and then the heart wouldn't hurt any longer. O, so please answer me..!
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart chooses blindly to hide..!
why does the head never agree, why can't the heart ever see..!
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak...!
why won't the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead.

Depression

Being in love is something people say they can handle, but is it true ?
Some people say that to be in love is very confusing, ... is it really ?
Some people say that love is something that cannot be handled with care you have to be responsible enough to understand the meaning of the word.....
So what is next ?
You tell me... for depression is a feeling too, That you get inside of your heart, is a place that hurts... something self cannot get passed with any art.

restless soul in ....

It is like a puzzle... you have to find all of the right pieces.
It is a game ... it can be taken literally or it cannot be taken literally..
It is confusing sometimes....  Only if you have the hang of things and if not then you will be lost and never find your way back..!
Life..! 
Why i feels like losing self control.. O

Egyptian Nile

Long after sunset I saw seven doves fly in a line, low over the waters of the Egyptian Nile.
They followed a path laid down by the moon to bring them home safe to where Nbms laying in his final destination.
Alone out of time in my mind’s eye ... still they fly, as they always flew low, over the Nile
in single file homeward to Nbms, who dwells in a humble house at the further end of the silver path to the moon.