I’m tired

Spending night after another trying to hide these scars, watching this infinity blue skies wishing on every shooting star.
bleeding to ink my feelings in a paper instead of talking, forced to accept people have nothing to me but mocking,
Dying before I get closer to live, I will not give up but, I have nothing else to give,
Do you know what these words even mean.
Can you imagine what I’ve been Through... I’m just sick, wick and broken too, If you look in my heart you’ll only find hurt, tears and nothing to hold, A vanishing reflection feeling so cold
There is no justice in the land of freedom, I don’t even know why I’m living for.. If it comes to me ,I want be here any more.. .. ... I’m tired.

long road ahead 003

When we became distant and the fire became smoke and ash... It's too late
How are you beneficial, o regret?
What are you doing, o reproach?
The painful nights have become long and the lovers separated.. Enough suffering and misery... And tears when we part and tears when we meet
Why do you blame me ? What's in my hand to do ?
It's too late,
How long have I wished to meet you with a smile or with a gaze of love or a blaming word
But I forgot how to smile as I have forgotten my pains
Time has always made people forget sadness and joy
If it's about the old love, If it's about the painful wound
The curtains of oblivion have fallen long ago
If it's about the old love and its harshness... I have forgotten it, I hope you forget it too
The night.... The ticking of clocks wakes the nightThe night.... And the anguish of the O's in the middle of the night
The bitterness of the sighs and the loneliness and the sleeplessness... Still hasn't gone far
You want us to be back as in the old times then... Tell time to go back and bring me a heart that hasn't fallen in love before that was never hurt nor deprived.

Because of my pain and the length of my nights... My pain, my pain.. Flow
Because of the joy of my enemies over my misfortunes... My pain, my pain.. Glow
Because of your harshness when we were lovers and the cruelness of the world to me
Between me and you is desertion and disloyalty and a wound in my heart that I have hidden
Between me and you are nights spent in separation... And a long road that you started
How are you beneficial, o regret?
What are you doing, o reproach?
The painful nights have become long and the lovers separated...Enough suffering and misery
And tears when we part and tears when we meet
Why do you blame me? 
What's in my hand to do?
It's too late, too late

weakfulness

And then the light was an omen of the sunrise and the dawn was towering over like a conflagration... And then the world was as we know it, with each lover in their own path
O.. sleepless one who slumbers and remembers the promise when you wake up
Know that if a wound begins to recover another wound crops up with the memory ,So learn to forget and learn to erase it
My darling everything is fated... It is not by our hands that we make our misfortune Perhaps one day our fates will cross when our desire to meet is strong enough for if one friend denies the other and we meet as strangers ...And if each of us follows his or her own way... Don't say it was by our own will.... But rather, the will of fate

Wakefulness

Now you start bleeding, Now you ask me where her love has gone..!
Is it was a palace of our imagination that has collapsed and what still remains is its ash... And please tell the story on my behalf as long as your tears flow, tell how that love became past news and time is comes to vanish and let her go.. for both of us became another story of passion wasn't suppose to be welcome.
I haven't forgotten her when she seduced me with a sweetly calling and tender tongue, when her hand extending towards me like a hand stretched out through the waves to a drowning person, she seduced me with a kiss that a night traveler was thirsts for its bless, 
Now could you tell me where is that light in her eyes ?
Now could you tell her that I visited her nest everyday as a bird of desire singing its pain, when she becomes self important, spoiled and capricious, when she inflict harm like a powerful tyrant for you and me,
Now could you tell her that my longing for her cauterized my soul and the waiting was like embers in my blood,
now please ask her to give me my freedom, to release my beats, for you given her all yours and she did not try to retain anything.

Her love chains will prison you to the rest of your life, you kept nothing didn't do and now they spared me... now why  .. O,
Why do I keep promises that she do not honor ?
When will this captivity end, when the world is before ?
She is far away, my enchanting love, full of pride, majesty and delicacy and with sure footed walking .. walking like an angel with oppressive beauty and rapacious glory... Redolent of charm like the breeze of the hills... pleasant to experience like the night's dreams,

I've lost forever the charm of her company that radiated brilliantly, I, wandering in love, a bewildered butterfly, approached you and between us, desire was a messenger and drinking companion that presented the cup to us... tell me had love seen two as intoxicated as us ?
So much hope we had built up around us and we walked in the moonlight path, even joy skipping along ahead of us, and we laughed like two children together, when we ran and raced our shadows.. O god,
And suddenly we became aware, after the illusion of our euphoria and woke up.. If only we did not awaken.
Wakefulness ruined the dreams of slumber and the night came, and from now on the night will become our only friend, and with tears we'll ink the last chapter in a story will never end.

Million things

 I don't know how to break the form, i don't know how I recognize the faces, i don't know if my mind speaks the sense, or my memory is intact and my head is blown in the air, I don't know if we can fly without wings, i don't know how to dance, I don't know how many rules of love I break, i don't know how to fit the gaps in between your laughing and your crying, but until I'll be the tear never shed in your eyes I'm losing my world into shadow, 
I don't know a million things about you.. but i'm sure I'll always love you as long as I'm still breathing.

Between the longing of the end, and the longing should began

And the days went by, and the days passed so quickly, between distance and adversity. And when I met her I forgot our opponent, I forgot the night I was watching miserably counting the seconds. Out of my hands I forgave the torment of my heart and the horror she did to me.I don't know how I run to her, as if there is nothing beyond my beloved even death itself.. as if i have nothing nothing but my beloved in this universe
She met me and the desires in our eyes was enough to full the universe with longing, And hand in hand a silence words started to reveals through our eyes, and she is whispered to me, "I'm sorry.. I was so wrong about you..!"I forgot What was the reasons behind our sorrow.. I forgave her and forgot why we was suffering at first place, OWhere is the tears of my eyes went..! forbidden was the sleep.. the sleep abandon my eyes... O, with a tenderness smile with her eyes .. all my sorrow vanish .. vapor on air .. the staleness of torment, and the sweetest torment, the torment of love for loved onesI will not be able to endure a day without her for the patience need patience to learn me to be patience alone without you.. There is nothing there in my dreams  beyond my beloved..
When wiser described patience to me I'm sure  it was just imagination, some words in love, a tears in a sea full of agony .. ya who know what meant by patience tell me how i can run away from my heart, which place can contains my love but her heart, Our sweet nights already everywhere, together we full it with our love, with hopes full the universe, Hopes and affection
Here is the dawn fold his beams after the abandonment in its pink color becomesAnd the light of dawn awake up the joy when the joy said to love .. awake up be happy, awake up and be rejoicing... He said to love folk rejoicing... and I.. from joy to joy I neither sleep nor health,
I spend the nights wait the invitation to meet her, living in the Autumn of my age to catch what still remains from youth spring between the longing of the end, and the longing should began

I hate you

Heart is broken by grief from sorrow to sorrow one's could write on the flush of his heart,
You are so kind, gave me lots of pain... Washed away what was gain, like a heavy rain. 
Walking on them foot of lies, again and again... go dream on, but you aren't my heart any longer,
Heart replying me... 
"An evening glow, the moon appears stars painted across the sky
A howl is heard
A bird cries out
A sorrowful feeling fills the air
The wind hushes the breeze fades when mourning tears droop down
All happiness gone every smile removed where sadness takes its place.. I beats only for her",
O, god then you aren't my heart any longer, she owns you, I hate you.. I hate you

The breeze of dawn

When the breeze of dawn pervading your hair O, my love.. i hear it whispers to my ears tenderness sighs
When the fragrant smells of your perfume dissolves in your sensitive senses whenever it touches your skin O, my love.. I hear it whispers to my ears tenderness sighs.
Yet I wounder why whenever you whisper me "I love you", i can't reveal the lamentations of your love loudly to the universe. 
O, I Wrote your name letters one by one with beads of morning dew on all trees leaves, who can admire you such as me, who can describe you like me..!
you are a beautiful dream, I hope all wounded hearts could dream on with me.. you are the highest sense i touched in my life which made me melt, made me feel that I'm still human full of humanity.

Wind of September

Wind of the middle of September always brings reality of which weather Autumn will bring,
impatient we wait.. Autumn leaves to fall into the shore of love

Stars dust

What drown the mind those wandering thoughts, When our hopeless dreams unfortunately nothing is what it seems.
what clouds the heart is, am i being fair..! or you are giving me less much of care..!
And in this never ending game do I'll have you or my unreachable stars dust will be gone in one breath of air.  O, 
and I find myself staying up late watching my thoughts drift into you
the way your hair descends upon your face and the way your lips look when they form the words you know i love to hear.

Wise men said

A long ago, wise men said, this life is so arrogant, and he who deceived by life tempting, he lose his destiny.
devil is capable of doing much... Capable of morphing with a thousand images, but he can not control those who dispense good to other.
what is the value of life and living if we lost our moral values, and selling our Innocence, tenderness and humanity.
How we can be proud in front of our mirrors if we lived our life escape from the truth. 
Money can come from the wind . it also may lost in the hardships of our life even our children leave us in the day of reckoning.
Money always disappears regardless of its amount, nothing will save us but the good we do for It will always remains.
and who we will be if we sold our past and our present, and why we even live if tomorrow can't bring satisfaction, and how we lay on beds sleeping as dead without dreaming about future, yet how dreams can see light if it was not a result to our good deeds.
a long ago, wise men said, this life is so arrogant, and he who deceived by life tempting him, he lose his destiny.
devil is capable of doing much... Capable of morphing with a thousand images, but he can not control those who dispense good to other.

five years ago in a note

For the sake of your eyes I loved love after a longtime I had spent in carefreeness... And now my eyes after sleep begging wakefulness not to leave.
O.. seducer, without you no passion would have shaken me nor the taste of love have pleased me, this is my heart, so own it affairs.. Judging it wrong if you like, or be equitable.
From the luster of passion in your eyes, you ignited my longing and on your path, wherever you went, I sent my eyes... Visions around me clouded between my doubt and my certainty and even desires dance in my heart over the tune of my sorrows.
I glimpse passion in your voice, buried O.. O. O's, hiding between your breaths so I don't discern it... I don't know if it's love whose sorrows your feared, or if you feared the blame so you favored tranquility.

You filled the path of love for me with happiness like light on the cheek of a dew covered morning... And if you felt me in misery, you'll cry as a child scared and fatigued... after you seduced me, I only found a mirage stuck in my hand... I didn't gain from it but a fleeting rainbow vanished before my eyes, and I wasn't guided.
Do you remember...! 
How you laughed when I cried and wished my torture to remains longer.
How you counted the days as only catastrophes and they were my life and my youth.
How you thought the moaning of my ribs an echo of tune of the sweetest songs while I was drinking the tears of my heart.

Don't say where are our nights, pretending it was so sweet.
Don't ask me about our desires and hopes, while it was mirages.
I covered yesterday with a curtain and a veil, So I can endure the bitterness of your abandonment and be willingly awaiting the reproach.

I swear..

By the Sun and its glorious splendour;
By the Moon as it follows His Sun to surrender
By the Day as it shows up the Sun's glory;
By the Night as it conceals it;
By the Firmament and its wonderful structure;  
By the Earth and its wide expanse:
By the Soul, and the proportion and order given to it; and its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right;
Truly he succeeds that purifies it, And he fails that corrupts it! 
By all the meaning allowed to fold beneath the bones.. 
I swear by your name silently in the depth of the horizon..  I'll be there only to drown deeply into your eyes.

A little champer

There is a little champer inside this bleeding heart, when the waves flow high... When the moon disappear beneath the cloud... When the world shrinks leave no space for breathe, when the storm twiste men trust leave no home mixing all the things with merely dust... I runs there and hide.
Respectfully, freely I offered it to you, for if we could play together then surly we can pray there forever... This humble kind of fortune is what I'm willingly seek, a peaceful place where two-piece of unique fragile spirits can fold silently what words failed to describe,
It's not war, or even not a battle .. it's forbidden for knights to fight..  Inside the shamper, let the wind of changing fold the sails, let that beam of hope light the candles, warm the senses for in time the boat will be at your shoes, searching for your champer to pray there forever.

The tools

I'm tired from all this... the standards of quantitative and qualitative more or less, If i shows you how it giving birth, then I can't imagine the affection and the impress,
Tools was, is... a peace of mind, emotions with grabbing the sense of your presence in my loneliness... a tab, a map that hunger longing to your sweetness, O.. with a life dictionary opened, maybe no.. maybe yes, just to prove my smartness,
The subject was freedom and how we seek or speak it, in a countries hunt all pencils, in a world full of red, excuse me for asking... are we still dreaming or we left the bed.
I'm a prisoner to an idea takes over my mind and shining in my head..and we will talk about it... face to face ahead,

First meeting 001

IF this important heart trouble your peace with words lighter than air, or hopes that in more hoping for a home twice we share, putting the rose in your hair, covering the lips with longing twilight and say,"O Hearts of wind will blown flame".. but Winds, older than changing the plans between a night and day, That hunger and longing came from a true was old, in the shore of your
carves lands.
In one last battle fold upon blue fold, Queens wrought with it's par hands, with her lovely sadly face above the wandering tide, in the hidden secret place where  the last dream folded and where it also died, O love "I'll never ever changing till change will be dead"

hold on

It is not the triumph over regress, it is the power to suppress.
It is not the money or the fame,  it is knowing you will always still the same.
It is not the power or the pride.  it is a place in your heart to hide.
It is not a gift or gain, it is accepting and believing in your name.
It is not a point or goal to seek,  it is, believing we have never reached the peak.
It is not an tree beneath the wind, it is unmovable root to hold on.
Success is

Five years have past..

Five years have past; five summers, with the length of five long.. long winters!
Collecting stone above stone above stone, to build that bridge over our dreams.!
And as a gray clouds prohibiting, blinding and forbidding us from make it come true, As the reason why you kept inside, the reason why behind your pretending was something I hate and unable to comprehending.
Five years have past; we rise and fall like the tides beyond our all, we give never to taken as the seasons our wants forgotten, we live to die like the rainbow spreading forgiveness in a life was a lie, and as long as we stay loyal to our timeless love, as wounded as we bleed our true feelings not willing to any thing but to put our senses above... 
Five years have past; and you still my rising sun, 
Five years have past; and you are the only place I wished to run.
Now what... you asking me to act like there is nothing you have done. 
O excuse me, it's your move to prove that love has no duality, and you will bleeding love with serenity, and loneliness, will never hunt us in your own enrage. and we will exchanging true love with fidelity.

Mocking

I was wounder
why life knocks me down, on my way to your misty town,
Why It happens to us all, when it's fated to rise... every time we fall,
Why on every single trip, odds are that we'll slip,
Why through each and every mile.. we must retain our smile
Why we need to get back up and keep on walking when all we receives still talking... Is that how we picture love in a shape of mocking..!

Peaces of dignity

You allowed fears to hinder me within my dreams, I may have been awakened in my life... Awakened from false illusions blinding me, Now I can't allowed myself to view the truth behind that door.
Perhaps true integrity I would have found, Creating a world where I am just another hat with wounded profound.
a large door intently placed half mast, Which knocked me to the ground leaving me to grasp the solar system swirling all around and up above my head and yet...  I in my mind continued to wander amidst confusion and denial.
That love could such a cruel thing intently do.. Until reality made me see the dream was impossible to be accepted too, Until waking to the reality of what a fool I'd been.. I'll wonder what doorways line my path will teach me... how to redeem the wounds with the peaces of dignity still remains.! for you.. you allowed fears to hinder me within my dreams,

Cry without tears... "humble gift for you"

She'
"A relationship is not an account to pay for it, it is a path of feelings that either fill you and the journey continues by sweet need, or you do not fill and change your way"

He'
Fly without wings... Cry without tears...
No tears will fall today, there's no pain i can feel
No more living in dreams, only to live for what is real

No more bowing heart on slavery, no more walking on air ... 
My heart can't take the spare time... to live life without a care

No sun will shine.. No rain will fall
Time to dry out my feeling and to build another wall

So stop all the cars, Turn the light to red, there will be no more falling, this man's heart is dead. 
No tears will fall today, there's no pain i can feel
No more living in dreams, only to live for what is real.
Fly without wings... Cry without tear.


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Apostolia Zoi

Great men are gone

All great men are gone... in them place a small man stands
Siting on a small park bench.. looking down to the ring in his hand
He tries to be brave but he feel so weak
for a hand on his shoulder is what he was seek
but no.. now please.. 
let the wind stop so the leaves can lay on the ground
let the marching band past without making a sound
He wish you were here.. 
because without you glowing up is his greats fear.

unwanted.. isn't

I can't stop thinking of you ... Day and night, Rain or Shine, your are my existence and my wine... The minute without you turned into day, and the seconds with you for a lifetime will last... and i wounder, with all your cheats and deceiving how one's can know the way,
I sit here in the dark just feeling our life slip away... So cold, so empty, so unwanted, And it is not something from out of the dark for I feel like this with all my heart.. Nothing will ever come close to showing you how i really feel, about you... with what is fake and what is real... So,
When winter comes in summer,
When theres will be no love forever,
That's when i stop counting 386 whatever.
I'm sure you've heard these words before, and i know it's hard for you to trust them once more.... You're afraid it all might end.... And your heart is scared of breaking finding nobody to mend,
But you've got to believe me that I'll never leave, and you'll never cry unless i am there with you, I will always be here, And you'll never be without me.
As long as the sun still lights the ski, you will always be in my heart and mind.. yet you must stop all your lies.

the moon and i

In a night full of love, where I'm taken to this far away shore,  In your eyes i met the sea... I lost the will to control myself.... i though my soul to the waves ... I'm drinking and yet still thirsty, this is our story and how it started, see .. see how crazy heart i have, how .. crazy.. my heart is... In loving you.. O
By the lover and wounded low... in the sea of your eyes i fold my love boat hulls into the wind, Moon spent all the night consoling my wounds, he put your picture beside my picture inside the mirror ... O, do you will believe me if i said he start to laugh at me, smiling...and start to ink our story with his beam over the waves,
since that day my heart never came back to its place.. since this time longing to the other shore forbid me from rest,

the see..

 البحر هو داري... هو موطني و جاري
اعشق فيه جنونه و رقته و شجونه
احكي له افراحي و اغرق فيه احزاني
و دائما يسمعني و في سري يحفظني
انه موعد غروب الشمس وقفت امام ذلك البحر...لون غروبك
يا شمس لن استطيع التعبير
كل انسان قبطان في البحر الساكن
قطرة فوق قطرة بحر و حكمة و علم
القشة في البحر يحركها التيار
و الغصن على الشجرة تحركه الريح
و الانسان وحده هو الذي تحركه الارادة

endless peace

Beyond the years ... the soul finally found; That endless peace... for, which it pined a long ago willing for light appears and with a priceless blood shed and tears, when the time finally comes... bright light blind the eye.
Beyond the years the true prayer for to rest the heart beats no more within the breast... gratefully for the darkness became clears, but the truth was beyond night drops tears, beyond thoughts, dreams, beyond the sea even beyond the years...

it's not the poor found the pearl

When we'll follow the stars, we must act as wiser,and we shall need the advice on some concerns in any available corner
So, when it is head of the family who goes further happily, takes none members of family.. in direction,
When the young ones have to be fed and led with security on them journey
So it is not only a matter of pride to provide proof path for there is no fear of death at all, fear is to embarrassment the one we care about, to humiliate ourselves in a world Not discovered .. for when we'll follow the stars, we must act as wiser... So ultimately it is prerogative to behave in a manner to act it would be, as guide and path finder

disappointed

Change comes so fast and leaves so slow, In the deep of my mind I believe that nothing forever last, the same daily question appears beneath dust, 
Am I ready to leave my past..!! 
Am I.. ready for any of this..!
I’m not ready
Not ready to let go
Not ready to give up
Not ready to worry
Not ready to realize things just aren’t going my way that problems just don’t go away
Not ready to cry over death
Not ready to live while counting the minutes waiting to die
Not ready to realize things are never going to be perfect
Not ready to be a leader
Not ever going to follow
Disappointed as I know.

in the eye of the beholder

Without real faithfulness satisfaction, any human can engraved to the seduce of money.
Without real gratefulness for what we have, dignity definitely will lose its meaning under the need willingly..
There is a hope beneath each border, there is a slavery behind impossible order and there is unconditional beautiful love in the eye of the be_holder. Let us open those doors, let us take off masks of vanity, humility for the others with different skin, religions or nationality no more..

the heat of the sea

The heart of a woman is as deep and calm as the sea, you feel the picture, get naked, step away your fears, and then full in the magnificent remarkable feelings with the wet of what beneath is waiting there to see, 
And as far as you can get down as much as you drown deeper, you adorable those old stuff, whispering to your senses,.. To swim with the flow, nothing here to catch...  All forbidden to touch,
The heart of a woman took my breath away

dream in a dream

in the early morning fog, as if in a dream, seeing the morning glories opening, and everything looks so much like spring... and the early morning air brings your scent to me and somehow I know that the voice that I hear in the deep of my graves mind is real...
Yours.. Yours and sincere.
And at the end of your dress there is a light, as if you collect all dawn of life to fight... the innocence of dying
Yet.. Under the ground there is a spirit wounding in the valley of shadows...
To feel or not to feel... in this unmitigated meandering of our bodies... like a wildness in the longing in its readiness for a tenderness kill,
bone in or bone out.... flesh innocent in its fulfillment, in the different colors of our skin
gyrating in the warmth... of our time capsule, waiting...  waiting for an answer..!
to feel or not to feel, the innocence of our dying feelings.. In the early morning fog..  As if in a dream.

dance with me

A beautiful dance will be, if only we could dance together all around this world
A dance of beauty to make this world sing, where enlightenment not just another ring
A dance of love to spread it all over the poverty..where I want is forbidden and the need become forgiven..

I don't know..

You give me that special feeling that I’ve never felt before.
You’re all I want- Nothing less, nothing more.
I fall for you more and more every day.
I don’t want to lose you, no way!
When I’m with you, everything else around disappears.
When I think about not being with you, I break out in tears.
I smile a lot to cover the pain.
I smile so much, some may think I’m insane.
I can’t help but to think about you.
I never know what you’re going to do.
You’re so unpredictable... But it’s ok, it’s cool.
My feelings for you are strong.
Weather we’re just friends, or more, I don’t want anything to go wrong.
I inked my thoughts to show how I feel... But nothing is false, it’s all entirely real.
Why so many? I do not know.
Letting my feelings out of my heart, somehow gives it more room to grow.
I can’t keep everything bottled up inside... My true heart, I shall not hide.

what they accepted and what I always denied

Covering truths with clever lies was what they accepted and what I always denied, fed upon...  towards a large door intently placed half mast, Which knocked me to the ground leaving me to see how I'm not blessed...
The solar system swirling all around and up above my head.. And yet I in my mind continued to wander amidst confusion and denial... That love could such a cruel thing intently do.!
Until reality made me see the dream,
Until waking to the reality of what a fool I'd been,

there is no bubbles inside the mirror

I see you cry from being hurt... Turn away for things equivalent to dirt
I was never there to make you happy ... Never once glanced to catch you laughing
Your days alone and being depressed... Blaming it on work is what I stressed
I never came back to you and shared your tears... I never was caring and soothed your fears
Life crashes down and you always ache, I was so irresponsible and called you my mistake,  I was always trying to make you someone else... Sitting in the corner talking to myself
"I never realized the person I've become... Staring at this mirror on the wall heart beating like a drum
I set everything in front of you and put you in the past... Everyone was first and you were always last, Now... I've come to understand you are all thats left"
Glancing over my mistakes tears rolling to my ches, My stomach is turning over my thoughts sinking in... 0 Blood falling from my nose trickling down my skin. . My eyes are swollen shut from this endless weeping sorrow
Knowing I was fake just for fun, mouth so dry I cannot swallow
tears shed from my selfishness enough for someone to drown
I rest my head in my arm knowing it is the end
No one deserve to be broken stuck with nothing left to mend.

nothing left to mend

My eyes are swollen shut from this endless weeping sorrow,
Knowing I was fake just for fun, mouth so dry I cannot swallow, tears shed from this selfishness enough for someone to drown, I picture in my mind how weak I became with a face of frown,
I rest my head in my arm knowing it is the end, No one deserve to be broken... stuck with nothing left to mend.

love me...

Where we dwell, in holiest bowers, Where angels of light thinking I'm the slower,
Where sighs of devotion and breathings of your sun flowers...
O god, I'm in heaven ... Do not disturb the calm of Lover, It well might deceive such hearts as ours.
Love stood near the shore in silent leaves the cloud fight the tour  with wandering wings, and wounding eyes...
Love now warms thee, waking and sleeping, for he tinges the heavenly fount with his weeping..... Love is the Saint enshrined in thy breast and angels themselves would admit such a guest,  for there will be a time. To saw what was harvest.

drawn out by tears

In the morning of life, when its cares are unknown, And its pleasures in all their new lustre begin.... When we live in a bright beaming world of our own, and the light that surrounds us is all from within;
O... believe me, in that happy time we can love, as in hours of less transport we may, of our smiles, of our hopes.. But affection is truest when these fade away.
When we see the first glory of youth pass us by, like a leaf on the stream that will never return, when our cup, which had sparkled with pleasure so high, then.... , then in the time when affection holds sway, with a depth and a tenderness joy never knew love like that way, and among pleasures, is faith as they, for the love born of Sorrow, like Sorrow, is true.
In climes full of sunshine, though splendid the flowers, the cloud and the mist of our own mind of showers
That call the rich spirit of fragrancy forth.... So it is not 'mid splendour, prosperity, mirth,
That the depth of Love's generous spirit appears when the soul of its sweetness is drawn ... Drawn out by tears.

Move on

When your love will start to fade, and the dream about "forever in my heart" deeply ingraved.
when with you there are a lot of pain, when apart of you will crying as rain.
When you are confused because of how you feel... if you dont move on you wont heal.
just smile and let go... and be with the friends and family that love you so.
it will take time to find your true love but just be yourself and be tru and then your true love will come to you.

life goes on... seriously

If you don't take this seriously, how are we gonna work this out, nothing seems right, I'm not thinking straight, for bright light blind my eyes... it feels like everything is fake
my bone is crashing my vain,
my heart is pumping blade,
my luck is all gone
my steps is in unknown hand
I can't change what happened or force my wish to come true... it's all insanity
I'm trapped into nowhere,
I'm straggling to find the road that mislead me to lose you
I'm in anger
I feel all desperate ... I feel all alone and there is nothing to go from here.. there is no hope for some reason you just don't get it, I'm giving you all the sign but it seems I'm not worth it
I can't spell the word and tell you that i love you in this useless connection, or even say our loud that i need and miss you
It's just a boring life I'm living without you
there is so many time I wished up on a star or wanted to kiss you but you were so fare... I guess it's destine to never meet you in this life
I have no chance with you, No matter how hard i try.. No matter what i do
you just won't get it, 
you left me no other choice
you gave me no reason to stay.
I think i have to get on with the truth... there is no "we" no more.

Finally home...

Finding where my young years and my strength are like finding memories from afar
Finding where my mind has gone is finding what i shouldn't done
Finding where my loyalties lie is like to search to find where the bluebirds fly
Finding where the rainbows end
Finding where the oceans blend
Finding the path that leads back in time ... Is finding my home
Finding a quiet and calming place... Is finding my home 
Finding my home... Is finding you beside.