Why do you beat yourself up

Why do you beat yourself up
because you had the courage to love
gave all of yourself in hopes that She was the one
Why do you beat yourself up
When it was her choice to be unfaithful
her choice to hurt you
Why do you beat yourself up
Knowing that you had done everything for her
supported her, comforted her, 
loved her more than you loved yourself 
Why after her lies and deceit
do you still love her? and want her to love you
Why after the repeat of hurt and trust being lost
do you think that she deserves a love as pure as yours
Why do you beat yourself up
over what you could have done better
when you know deep down there was nothing
What makes you search for answers as to why 
when they will not change the past, Nor mend your broken heart
Why when a Woman decides to cheat do we blame ourselves?
why does it make us question every little detail about who we are 
Make us think that we are not worthy of love
Why when a woman cheats do we still long for her to change
Realize how wrong she was, and fall in love with us again
Why do you beat yourself up
When you deserve more
When all that you have done is loved someone completely
Give yourself time and the pain will subside 
and the mourning will cease
You will see that you are still you
Still wonderful, beautiful you
Nothing has changed except your experience in love
And your determination to share love with another
As you can never truly love someone until you learn to love yourself